Let me tell you how stress might actually kill me.
Hello Dance is in less than a month and nothing has been set in stone - I still need to get the letterhead for the DJ and I still need to call the jumper people. There's so many deadlines to be met and there's barely any time for me to do any of this when school starts. I'm so scared. My first event this year, and I already feel myself falling apart.
FORMAL. So many places and so many ideas, but so little time. Ideally, I should have already decided on a venue and contracted the date and be ready to announce to Improta the details of Formal; but I have absolutely nothing. I just emailed an event planner and asked her to guide me through the process - I have no idea why I didn't do this earlier. I'm just so scared I set everything in process a little too late, and I'll have to set Formal at either a non-appealing location or on a non-appealing date, and if I had to do that I'd be so ashamed of myself. Goddamn skdlfja;lksdjf
The college process - everyone's already almost done with their personal statements and their supplements and I've barely started. If college was a game (which it is) I'm already pretty far behind, and catching up is going to take way too much effort. There's still so many things to sort out - I still need a COLLEGE LIST. Aka I honestly don't even know where I'm applying yet. This year is going to kill me.
CHAPTER. Because I have a co chair now (an annoying airheaded co chair), there has to be double the amount of success I had last year - which means double the number of EHL students, and double the amount of money raised for Measles and Malaria. We had so many plans for the M&M Initiative, but putting them into action is going to be a whole other story. There's so much coordinating and organizing and committment involved, and I'm not entirely sure how much of myself I can put into it.
I'm just...so afraid. There's so many things just riding on my successes, and I'm so scared I'll let other people down. I can't handle disappointment, but I'm afraid this year's going to be filled with it.
Let me tell you how stress might actually kill me.
Hello Dance is in less than a month and nothing has been set in stone - I still need to get the letterhead for the DJ and I still need to call the jumper people. There's so many deadlines to be met and there's barely any time for me to do any of this when school starts. I'm so scared. My first event this year, and I already feel myself falling apart.
FORMAL. So many places and so many ideas, but so little time. Ideally, I should have already decided on a venue and contracted the date and be ready to announce to Improta the details of Formal; but I have absolutely nothing. I just emailed an event planner and asked her to guide me through the process - I have no idea why I didn't do this earlier. I'm just so scared I set everything in process a little too late, and I'll have to set Formal at either a non-appealing location or on a non-appealing date, and if I had to do that I'd be so ashamed of myself. Goddamn skdlfja;lksdjf
The college process - everyone's already almost done with their personal statements and their supplements and I've barely started. If college was a game (which it is) I'm already pretty far behind, and catching up is going to take way too much effort. There's still so many things to sort out - I still need a COLLEGE LIST. Aka I honestly don't even know where I'm applying yet. This year is going to kill me.
CHAPTER. Because I have a co chair now (an annoying airheaded co chair), there has to be double the amount of success I had last year - which means double the number of EHL students, and double the amount of money raised for Measles and Malaria. We had so many plans for the M&M Initiative, but putting them into action is going to be a whole other story. There's so much coordinating and organizing and committment involved, and I'm not entirely sure how much of myself I can put into it.
I'm just...so afraid. There's so many things just riding on my successes, and I'm so scared I'll let other people down. I can't handle disappointment, but I'm afraid this year's going to be filled with it.
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
