So many times I find myself only looking out for myself and disregarding the feelings of those around me - even my friends. And the worst part is, I don't even know how to stop it. I want to be genuinely concerned but when it all narrows down, I realize that what I really want is my own happiness and if there's other people involved in that process, then hey - why not string them along? And it makes me hate myself so much because most of those people ARE compassionate and look out for others and actually put other people before themselves. I realize I demand so much from the people around me and rarely do I give any back. I keep expecting people to give and give and I take it all for granted. I hurt people and never tell them why; I let people down when things don't go my way; I push people away when they change into something I don't like.
So many times I find myself only looking out for myself and disregarding the feelings of those around me - even my friends. And the worst part is, I don't even know how to stop it. I want to be genuinely concerned but when it all narrows down, I realize that what I really want is my own happiness and if there's other people involved in that process, then hey - why not string them along? And it makes me hate myself so much because most of those people ARE compassionate and look out for others and actually put other people before themselves. I realize I demand so much from the people around me and rarely do I give any back. I keep expecting people to give and give and I take it all for granted. I hurt people and never tell them why; I let people down when things don't go my way; I push people away when they change into something I don't like.
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.