which color?





dailies
isabel
josh
ralph
angel
catherine
marissa
tiffany-liu
michele
tiffany-yeh
michelle
shivanti
andy
emily
sayoni
joe
renz
jeremy
daniel-lee
andrew-hou
priya
shelley
ronnie
daniel-shim
andrew-fang
claudine
julian
jocelyn
kathy
paley
hannah
charles
katheryn
avi
priyanka
tim
jeanyoung
ben
sarah/mary
john
emma
archie
abi
kaajal
eric

Hey. I didn't deserve that.

So I still can't get colors. And I really don't know why. But oh well. Less of a hassle. (:

So here's some Light the Night pictures. (:

Cool kids eat chicken? The food there was pretty good. (: I actually ate TWO burgers. I felt like a total pig. -__-



Group picture with Mr. Kool-Kidz-Eat-Chikin.



HAHA look at Angel! And Jeremy too. Some people are so good at making faces. (:



So it was mostly the four of us walking together. (: They made the two miles seem like only half a mile. <3 (Well. The free juice and milkshake helped too.)



MUN prep conference was yesterday! It kind of changed my view on the class, cause now I know why we need so much preparing for this one conference. And it was kind of fun. (: Not as bad as I thought it would be. CONGRATULATIONS to Emily Liang for being Best Delegate! And for Sayoni and Labdhi for getting Outstanding. You guys were really really good. (: I really think Sayoni should've gotten the other Best Delegate. =/

So I changed the songs in the sidebar. It's 'Why' by Secondhand Serenade and 'The Adventure' by AVA. So enjoy them. (: Oh yeah Chris showed me the first song. Just giving him credit so he doesn't freak out and go OHMYFREAKINGGOSHYOUSTOLEMYSONG. There you go, Chris. And Josh showed me the second one. (: Thanks, guys.

Ahha I should really be doing my homework. But I'm not. :D Cause I'm gonna procrastinate and sleep late again. (:

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Erk.

Okay this is pretty retarded. So I had to get rid of my other layout cause apparently the creator's photobucket bandwidth got exceeded. I would laugh, but I'm using the layout. -__- So I went back to look for another one. And createblog was the only place that let me download, cause that other site need some weird download thing. Which doesn't make sense cause I ALWAYS used that site. And I never had any problems.

So now I don't have any color or font choices. Which makes me pretty mad. And I've used this one before, too. So ehh whatever. I'll just wait until weekend to find a decent one. -__-

But on the bright(ish) side, I managed to import my posts onto Facebook. (: Bigger audience. :D I don't think I'd like that, though. I'll probably take it off sooner or later.

I'm freaking tired right now, but I really can't let myself sleep. Cause if I start napping now, I'll probably wake up at like eight and miss dinner and sleep late at night. And that gets everyone pissed. So I'll just turn my iPod up a looot and do my homework. Yeeaah.

And my room smells like Chinese medicine. The kind that makes you cough and cry. Apparently my mom sprayed it all over my room to get rid of the ants. If it chases humans away, it might as well chase the ants away. -__-

Okay so now I have to go swim. Ahha totally forgot about that. Another reason I can't nap.


And I still hate my layout. -_____-x

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It just takes some time.

I really don't know why I took MUN in the first place. There's so much work for the conferences and all. All those position papers and researching. And we really have to learn the lessons on our own. He just gives us the assignments, and then gives us a test. And we never talk about the textbook at school. His lectures are all about the UN, so we have to rely on ourselves to pass the book-based test. I mean, I've done that before, but not without some talking about the lessons. This is just too hard. ): Do you guys get what I mean? I'm kind of out of it today, so I probably won't be making any sense.

I don't even know what I'm doing here. I have a pile of homework waiting to be finished, and here I am blogging. Ahha, what a freak. And Issac says MUN is FUN. Whatever, Isaac.

So Light the Night was yesterday. (: Pretty funnn. And it didn't even feel like two miles. Didn't even feel like one mile. I guess it's cause of the free juice and the free milkshake they gave us. (: But the walk was pretty touching, too. Like when we were making posters, there was this group of little kids writing 'we miss you mommy' on their poster. And I was like AWWWW. Don't take your loved ones for granted, guys.

I'll put up some pictures later. I'll upload some onto Facebook and Photobucket later too. (:

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A different landscape.

Sometimes I wish I could control my feelings. Keep my heart from going rampage. Cause the farther it goes, the more it hurts when it comes back. So why can't I just make it stay in one place? With me, where it's the safest it will ever be?

Stupid heart. If my life wasn't connected to yours, I'd kill you already.

I should've known this wasn't real.
And fought it off and fought to feel.
What matters most? Everything,
That you feel while listening to every word that I sing.
I promise you I will bring you home;
I will bring you home.

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"Shh, be quiet. I'm very vulnerable inside."

I like this layout. Don't you? So dark and so pretty. And even though I miss my comments bar, it's kind of refreshing, in a weird way, not to have it. Makes me feel a little more solitary. Does that make sense? It does to me. (:

Ahha everyone's stressing over their Brannen weekly write. I've heard some pretty bizarre ideas so far. So apparently Josh is going to do a critical review about Rock Band 2. Charles is doing some conversation between two people and one person breaks a promise and gets the other person mad or something. Vince is doing a descriptive paragraph on deodorant and how it seduces all the laaadies. No really, Vince. -__- And Jeremy's doing a poem on Ms. Brannen. Suck-up.

So I went music-hunting yesterday. (: And I downloaded seven songs. They're pretty freaking good. You guys should go get them. (:

The Adventure
~Angels and Airwaves

Why
~Secondhand Serenade

The Middle
~Jimmy Eat World

Everything You Ever Wanted
~Hawk Nelson

River Flows in You
~Yiruma

The last one is a piano song; there's no words in it. But it's the lullabye that Edward sang to Bella in Twilight. So that might interest some of you girls out there. But not me. Or Marissa. Or Shivvy. It's still a good song though, even if the thought of what it was used for makes me GAG. Just kidding. Edward's a great guy; Jacob's just better. (:

Let's go somewhere next weekend. (: Get out and have a little fun at TC or something. We're cramped at home doing nothing but homework.

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Dance dance.

So I didn't really post a lot ever since school started. I could say that I didn't have enough time, but I just forgot. -__-

So Hello Dance was yesterday. (: Pretty freaking fun, but the DJ was pretty crappy. We didn't even know half the songs. They were from the nineties or something. -__- But still, I had fun with Michele, Izzy, Catherine, Angel, Josh, Ellie, Alyssa (is that how you spell it?), and Archie. If I forgot you, I'm sorry. ): I just can't get my brain to work right right now.

So next dance is Halloween Dance! About a month away. (: Yaay. And then it's Halloween! :D We have to go trick-or-treating together, since Halloween this year is on a FRIDAY. That means we can go as late as we want and have sleepovers or whatever. (: Ahha I'm getting excited alreadyy.

I feel like changing my layout. I get tired of them so easilyy. I don't like the fact that I can't get music playing the same time as people read my posts. So I'm gonna go layout hunting. Which would probably take about an hour, and editing about half an hour. So yay. More procrastinating. (:

This post had absolutely no point. -__-

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sorry, isaac. (:

School was alright today. Not a lot of fun stuff. But I liked it. Sunny changed her schedule and now she's homeroom with me. (: OH YEAH and in fourth period. I sat behind Vince Wu and he probably has the biggest head in the class; and the biggest hair in the class. It's just like POOF up in the air and I'm like struggling in my seat trying to see over him. Then Mrs. Perry showed us this video and just near the important part I told Vince to move his head. So he turns around, and right at that moment, the girl popped out and screamed and the whole class jumped and the girls squealed and the boys got hysterical and Vince got mad cause he didn't see the girl scream. Yeah. Sorry Vince. He avoided me the rest of class. Or the rest of the day, really.

HAHA and then AFTER class. We were walking out and I was talking to Isaac. Well not really. -__- I just said hi. It was his luck that he slammed right into the pillar when I said hi to him. And the left side of his face was all red. And he blamed me cause I distracted him. But it wasn't my fault. He wasn't looking straight. And he avoided me the rest of the day too.

Ahha just my luck. Getting two people to hate me in one day. But I'm sure they won't hate me forever. (: Or at least, I hope so.

Sorry, guys. Really. But it wasn't that important, Vince. -__- And Isaac, you'll be finee. Just don't do it again. (No doubt you will. -__-)

So when I got home today, I was like YEAH I'LL DO ALL MY HOMEWORK TODAY. Well, this is Whitney. People who don't procrastinate are freaks. And apparently, my brain doesn't allow me to be a freak. I just opened my science book right now, and all I've read so far is the title. And I still have math waiting for me. -__-


And for the previous post. I'd rather you guys not pay attention to it. Just random crap that I wanted to say. (: And for the people that did bother to read it, I thank you guys so much for your support. You have no idea how I love you guys. <3

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Lovesick.

So today I just found out that my mom threw away my old Converse. And those were going to be my PE shoes. -__- So I got all pissed and grumpy cause I really really didn't want to break into new shoes. I loved those faded blue All-Stars. And that made my mom all mad and she's all like "In all your thirteen years, all you've ever learned is to complain. Complain complain complain. Can't you at least TRY to learn something useful?" Usually I'd shoot back with something like "Gee, school really isn't useful at ALL!", "Complaining's actually quite useful; you should know", or "I wouldn't be talking." But I didn't. -__- Cause I really didn't want to handle another fight, and everyone blaming me for starting it. So whatever. Let her yell, let her shout, I'll just sit there and tune it out. Coldplay was conveniently playing, so it wasn't that hard. (:

My dad, on the other hand...it's impossible to tune him out, no matter WHO he's yelling at. Even if it's the dog. Poor thing. Sits there and looks up like prey looking at predator. I wonder if that's how I look when he shouts at me. HAHA I doubt it. If I looked like that, he wouldn't be shouting at me in the first place, now would he? I'm just too damn stubborn; rebellious; and I don't allow the words to get through to me. Cause if I did, where would I be now? Sulking in the corner of my room hugging a teddy bear and shouting at everyone who comes in? Naw. Never gonna let that happen to me.

But really. Is it so necessary to shout and yell out your lungs? I can hear just fine if you talked at normal volume. It's actually harder to listen when you're shouting, cause then my ears hurt, and then I don't really want to listen to whatever crap you're putting out. And when you shout, you make whoever you're talking to want to shout back. So it's become some shouting/insult match where no one wins but everyone ends up wishing the other person would go to hell. Now that's just dandy, isn't it.

So I guess these shouting matches teach me to think. Not good thinking; just thinking fast. You say one thing, and three things come up in my head. I say the one thing that gets you the maddest. Then you get mad, and think of something to say back at me. I laugh to myself, and think how stupid that is. Then you see me smiling, and get madder. Of course, I do stop when you start throwing things. Cause we don't want to lose more money by replacing things we already have, now don't we? And this is a VERBAL fight, it's not supposed to get physical. So I'll stop. And you'll calm down by shouting more. And I'll just sit there and nod when it looks like I'm supposed to nod. And then it's over! Until a few minutes later when I forget to wash the dishes. Then hopefully you won't throw the dishes. Some can break, you know.

So much drama; so little time. This is why school's a good thing for me. Whatever drama there seems so juvenile to whatever crap's happening back here. And eight, maybe nine hours away from home each day is a great escape. And not to mention homework! Come ninth grade, our homework keeps piling up and up and up. But that's good! I welcome any distraction!

So now I finally understand what they mean by 'every day is an adventure'. And not just every day; every minute, every second. You feel happy right now, a minute later, life seems hopeless once again. Because what the hell are you supposed to do when you're forced to hate what you once loved? That's turning your whole world upside down, leaving you nowhere to go. Of course, there's always those little openings, but when everything you know is wrong, where are you supposed to go? Right becomes wrong, wrong becomes the only thing you can trust. So where do you go from that point? You tell me.



Yeah; I feel pretty damn cynical.

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