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dailies
isabel
josh
ralph
angel
catherine
marissa
tiffany-liu
michele
tiffany-yeh
michelle
shivanti
andy
emily
sayoni
joe
renz
jeremy
daniel-lee
andrew-hou
priya
shelley
ronnie
daniel-shim
andrew-fang
claudine
julian
jocelyn
kathy
paley
hannah
charles
katheryn
avi
priyanka
tim
jeanyoung
ben
sarah/mary
john
emma
archie
abi
kaajal
eric

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My parents met on Valentine's Day. Apparently, my dad had all these girls chasing after him, cause he was the 'hot thang' on the market, so he had like 8079743 girlfriend-potentials. But I guess he dumped all of them when he met my mom (or so he says; he's not that good at the truth) and it was 'love at first sight' and they got married and went off on their happily-ever-after tramp.


NOT.

Fairy tales don't exist, reality does. And life just keeps serving you bitchslaps until you LEARN that you have to stop believing your fairy godmother will save you from your nightmares. And until you understand that, you'll be rebelling against fate and that one hell of a rollercoaster it straps you onto. Because rollercoasters can't keep going up; everyone has to fall down sometime. And you can't see when or where or how. And so yes, life DOES suck, life IS a bitch, life IS unfair, life DOESN'T give second chances, but so what? (: That just means to stop looking for happiness in one place, and trust me, that's a pretty hard skill to learn.

Because what happens when all your life has been centered around one aspect, and that all of a sudden disappears? Then where do you look to? As easy as it sounds, you can't just switch on and off your feelings, or anyone else's. So I guess we wait it out. Waiting's painful, man. ):


But there's just this one wish that I seriously had hope for, but I guess even 11:11's can't help me out here. Because starting from today, that one little wish is going to cause a whole lot of trouble. -_-

But then again, maybe I should stop centering wishes on myself, and use it on other people. lkaj;lsdjfasd I'm so selfish. D: But from my [self-centered] viewpoint, everyone's pretty much happy-go-lucky. (except HenryMa. Keep praying! <3)



^ drafted.
earlier this week, I think?
things don't change.

Still let-down. Disappointed. Tired of being hopeful. Tired of being hopeless. Stuck in the middle. Hating how lines are blurred. Wanting to know so badly what's right and wrong. Wanting contentment. Frustrated and anxious. Worrying. Shocked? Still trying to scramble back up.

Damn. -_-

Some things are just hard to get over, aren't they?

I don't get why looks have to be so damn deceiving.



And I'm STILL beating myself up.

We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride;
The world stuck in black and white.
{blg}


Thanks for letting me down.

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spontaneity.

- 48" shorties
- joe's nipples?! ;)
- black&white
- mystery lodge scary disappearing man. ):
- alice = driver; tiff = paprazzi (:
- alice = illegal driver ):
- catherine's party of eleven!
- waiting forty minutes -_-
- squeezing into booth (:
- waiting
- more waiting
- check? check! CHECK?!
- pictures with waiter :D (jeff?!)
- 'i HATE the water!'
- jeremy the tourist
- 'i know what MY future part-time job is!'
- boomerang = hyperventilating
- boomerang = archie!
- operators on crack D:
- bridge bridge bridge? (no splash -_-)
- PRETENDING I CARE FOR CATHERINE (:
- 'toppings on the side, please?'
- <3

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3 lovenotes.
Over my head.


4 dis whole post i will type in thiz annoying manner dat pissez me off wen othr ppl type wit it. dun ask me y im doing it. just want 2 c how much it can annoy sum of u. (:

btw do u lik da pic up dere? i tink itz pretty hilarious. :D

jus typing lik dis already makes me feel immature. -__-



OKAY I'M STOPPING. GAH IT'S PAINFUL. D:

Okay hi. (: Oh and also when people tYpE LiKe tHiS. I don't get why. -_- It just took me double time to tYpE LiKe tHaT. Pointless, but hella annoying. Oh and random typos. Like the = teh. Do you do that on PURPOSE or was it just a typo? Because if you look at the screen when you're typing, typos are pretty easy to catch. So as;ldfkjsadfj watch where you're typing! >:O

I FINISHED TWIF ESSAY! :D :D :D It literally took me the whole day cause it's the first assignment ever for the class and I'm afraid that if I screw it up, my grade will get screwed. -_- And it's so hard picking a word that actually sounds sophisticated, instead of it coming out all flat and childish. But I'm done! :D So now I have to read Fast Food Nation AND write the essay for THAT one in seven days. But I've heard that it's sort of interesting, so maybe I'll be done with it faster. (: Plus, it's half the length of TWIF anways. :D

Christmas in five more months! (:

Summer doesn't feel like summerrrr. ): Aside from the fact that it's hot, there's really no difference. I still have homework, I still have pointless classes, I just get to wear less clothing. -_-

OH AND someone prank called me at around 10:30 today. -_- "Hello, this is...Santa Claus! What would you like for Christmas?" So at first I thought it was Catherine, right? So I was like "Oh yeah I'll have YOU for Christmas" or something like that. And then this GUY's voice says "Would you like a hot boyfriend?" So I was like ohshit who is this. -_- It sounded like Hanamoto, but why would Catherine and Hanamoto be together at 10:30 at night? o__o (I mean, it's possible, but they'd more likely keep it under the covers (no pun intended HAHAHA) then flaunt it, right?) So GAH I've been trying to figure it out since foreeever, and it's making me pretty frustrated. (:

It's 1AM! (: Just saying. You know, my regular sleeptime has been 2AM recently. -_- That's bad. ): So after I publish this, I'm going straaaight to bed! (:

Oh and I was watching One Piece online HAHAHA. IT'S HILARIOUS AHAHAHA IT TOTALLY MAKES MY DAY. :D :D Cause you know how there's always this stupid person in whatever movie/TV show you watch, right? But in this one, that's just EVERYONE. So I LOVE IT AHAHAHA. (Don't judge.)

AND after I finish FFN + essay, I can finally finish season 2 of Gossip Girl and start on season 2 of Secret Life! Yaay. (:

My back hurts for staring at the computer so much. Can you believe that essay took me around five hours, give or take? ): LOL I keep going back to it. x)

Sigh. SIGH. SIIIIGHHHH. I like sighing. (:

I'm tired. I ran out of things to say. D: That never ever happens! And it's not supposed to happen! D:

OH I changed my Firefox theme, and it's so beautifulll. I <3 Firefox. (: Kay it's late late late and I'm seriously going to for sure for sure sleep now. Good night, beautifuls. (:

Btw Avi, thanks for the file! :D

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the moment when we're meeting,
will play out like a scene
straight off the silver screen,
so I'll be holding my breath,
right up 'til the end,
until that moment
when I find the one
that I'll spend
forever with.

Miss me? (:

Actually, miss my dysfunctional computer? Cause that thing's been preventing me from the internet since last week. -_- So I had to resort to my mom's desk computer, but then there's three other people wanting to use that one too, so I only have time to check mail and read other blogs. ):

But Josh's uncle came over to fix things up. :D (cause Josh wouldn't pick up his darn phone -_-) Now it's okaaay, I guess. There's no more spontaneous shutdowns, so I'm guessing the virus doesn't feel like attacking just yet.

I still have a poster to finish coloring and it's almost 12AM. Not to mention I just came back from Shelley's, so I'm dead tired and alsdkjfa;sldf

But at least I have my computer back. :D That means finally being able to download those 439705 songs I've wanted to find/dl for the whole week. (: I'm gonna change the music player pretty soon, so I'll show you guys soon. :D Btw I steal songs from other blogs. Just saying. ;) But doesn't everyone?

85% done with 'The World is Flat'! Come on Alice, you can do it. (: Goal is to finish it ALL tomorrow. (yeah shut up I know it's impossible -_-) Cause I still need time to finish FFN too. ): Lol we're so geeky we even use acronyms for books. ('Yeah I'm TWIFing!') And on top of that, I have to remember to study my theory and remember to actually TEACH Tina it, cause there's no one around to do that. ): And I'm a pretty sucky teacher. Mainly cause of the idiot of a student I have. -_-

I finally watched some Gossip Girl! :D I just need to watch the last 2 (or 3?) episodes and I'll finaaally be caught up. (: I heard that there's some intense Chuck/Blair drama, so yay! (: I love those two. Nate's just such a dork. -_-

And after Gossip Girl, I get to catch up on Secret Life too. (: And watch the last episode of 10 Things I Hate About You.

Swimming = tiring = messing up my sleep schedule agaaain. Vicious cycles.

I need some shoutouts.
Catherine - I'll tell her to call soon. Don't go around and screw things up. Just shhh stay put and stay quiet. (yeah I know that's impossible for you. (: ) You know there's no way I'm going without you. (; <3
Chris - No I did NOT hear that 'gottagobye!' -_- You owe me two voicemails, two calls, and an actual visit. (no you can't just stop by the gate and say hi.)
Health Group - I'm actually really glad we actually managed to work together. Even though it involved a lot of shouting and violence. -_- But ehh. We did it. (: Sorta. (Thanks for the late poster, Shane. >:O)
Tiff - (keep your man away from Tina. I'm warning you.)
Joe - YOU GOTTA CALL ME TO REMIND ME. I BET YOU I'LL STILL FORGET IT TOMORROW.

Btw. Guess whaat? Turns out I actually went to Versailles. THE Versailles, with the crazy gardens and the insanely huge palace. And I've got pictures to prove it too. ;) But it sucks that I didn't know anything about it when I visited it. ):

Anyone have 'Runaway' by the Yeah Yeah Yeahs? Cause I want it, and I can't find it anywhere. ): I'll pay you if you have it. :D

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5 lovenotes.
notes.

I found a draft from Tim's party on Sunday. Do you guys still want to see it? Here's what I had so far:

"YEAH JOE YOU'RE REAL FUNNY. -_- Because dyslexia totally mixes up Palm as Norwalk, right?

SARAH you're a horrible therapist. So she sits there and listens to me and Chris rant about how he's such a horrible person and how he takes advantage of little girls. And sits. And listens. And sleeps. -_- And then wakes up an
d the only only advice she gives us is '...you two should get married!' -__- BEAUTIFUL.

CHRIS you poor thing. It must hurt so much for your life to fall so low to make a living out of abusing little girls and then take them to a counseling session that's just complete BS. Oh fun stuff.


JOE what a corrupted stand-in therapist. I swear, it's a wonder you ever got hired. But then again, your boss is as much of a nuthead as you.
"

Er I kinda forgot to post it. So it's not the same anymore, but have fun! (:

Schedule?
2 - ChemH - Bender! (Chris, Sarah, SagarK, Victoria, AlexK, Ingrid, Megan, EricN, TiffC)
3 - Japanese II - Oyama (Alex, Avi, Eric, Priyanka, Mary, Meghan, John - the oldies (: )
4 - AP Human - Perry (Shivvy, TiffL, Chris, Victoria, Archie, EricH)
5 - AlgII/Trig - Brice (there's no one. ): )
6 - English II - Hall (TiffL, JessP, Renz, Victoria, Opal, Avi, EricH)
7 - Swim/Athletics - Crissman
8 - Orchestra - England
9 - MUN IS - Rosenberg

Fun stuff? (: Except there's no one in my Algebra class. ): And I get Hall instead of Palmieri or Baillie. Just my luck. -_-


GUESSSS WHAT. My mom's dragging me back into CAC, so you guys'll be seeing me again. -_- But on the bright side, I won't be complaining about feeling fat because of the lack of swimming. (: Yahoo.

My sleeping habits are still wack. See, I thought summer would fix things up, but noooo. Thomas Friedman comes along with this 635-page textbook that I have to digest in under fifteen days, and BOOM there goes my sleep. And AFTER THAT, I have to eat up (no pun intended) another textbook, and write another essay, and fal;sdfj;adfljk I hate summer homework. -_- I also hate how my back's always hurting. And how nothing happens in health. And how my health group won't get anything done cause they all fcking hate each other. And how outsourcing and the history of the internet won't ever leave the back of my head. >:O Why is summer so frustrating. ):

But on the bright side! I'm lovin' -
- Green Day
- my phone
- my bed + Freddy&Guppy
- jeans
- Mickey
- Izzy's house
- Yogurtland
- the schedule panic
- Chris's calls
- my goal book
- watermelon
- shorts
- the pool
- meetings that aren't meetings
- tank tops!
- popsicles
- aloe juice
- hair clips
- face wash
- apples
- bath&bodyworks' mango mandarin
- being lazy and relaxed (:

Have a great rest of the summer, guys! Don't let me be a killjoy. (:


Heal the world,
make it a better place,
for you and for me
and the entire human race.
There are
people dying,
if you care enough for the living.
Make a better place for you and for me.

- I miss you, MJ. You left behind one hell of a legacy.

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10 lovenotes.

JOE LEE IS A JERK. >:O

He's just like Chris in that he likes to abuse little girls who have done nothing but love him. ): So now he deserves a few ball taps and a few slaps to the head (which I enjoy dishing out very very much ;D) and Chris typed that because I don't like feeling up guys' crotches, thank you very much. Because she's a lesbian (: go get her girls ;D NO stay away from me you dirty girls! >:O

jOE says Alice is beautiful. Why thank you Joe. <3
STP LYING ALICE! YOU'RE UJDLD

HALLOOO. ALICE IS A BAD MAMA.
SHE BODYSLAMMED MEEEEE.
HER OWN DAUGHTER.
GAHGAH.
BADMOM :[
-tiff

3 lovenotes.
FlyBackBreastFree

" 'Honey,' I confided, 'I think the world is flat.' "

The start of a 635-page book begins here. But I have the third edition, and I have no idea which one he wants us to read. o__o Do you guys know? And then I have Fast Food Nation in line after that one... -_- Why couldn't he make us read something like Harry Potter and make us discuss relationships or something? At least we wont' fall asleep reading that. -_-

New crush: my phone. The most beautiful thing in the world.

I wonder why this summer wasn't as hyped as last year's summer. Remember how there was 'SUMMER '08!' everywhere? It's just not around this year. Sad. Or maybe it's just me?

My leg hurts. And it's not like a sharp, shooting hurt, it's like a dull, really really annoying hurt. And it's more unbearable than if I actually got a cut on my leg. It's so damn distracting; I can't walk up/down stairs, I can't bend them without hurting it, I can't put too much weight on it, and askl;falksf it won't go awaaaay. -_- It started last night, then stayed throughout my sleeping, then kinda faded during health, then came back alive after I showered, and here it is again. Hello. Go away. -_-

I need to swim. I feel out of shape. I feel fat. I feel less confident. I need that chlorine; I miss it being everywhere I am.

Chris: Sorry for the gate, sorry for MS. I'll make it up to you. <3
Izzy: citadel citadel citadel? what happened to Charles' house? x)
Catherine: I had to delete like 21 entries just so you could be first. You're welcome. -_-


The world
is
perfectly
round.

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