Cutting up rubber balls and putting them in boxes. I don't even think you remember that.
Considering that career project is due tomorrow, I say my horoscope for today can't get any lamer. "It's a perfect lazy day -- as long as you can afford to do nothing, that is! Anything essential takes nine times longer than usual, so if you can put anything off, you are much better off doing so."
LAME. Thanks for promoting procrastination, Yahoo.
On another subject, Aloha was hella fun. (: I really couldn't hear anything when the dance was over HAHA. So my mom got mad cause she was talking to me about some random college stuff in the car but I didn't hear her cause I wasn't listening AND the ringing in my ears overrode her talking. So I heard muttering until she punched me. It's what I get for our class always always always going in front of the speakers. -_- Teehee I love us, though! :D And the DJ was actually pretty good this time. (: (Mainly cause he played 'Satisfaction' two times ehehe. :D)
But now I have to wait three months and a half till Hello. x) So that gives me three months and a half to convince these losers to go to a dance. :D
I should be at MUN banquet right now. ): But I don't have the money and I don't have the time and I really don't have the will. ): Sorry Frankie and Tiff. D:
Damn I should stop judging people, huh? It's such a habit, though. ): Like biting my lips and fingers and my crazy temper.
No I'm not going to post a super-long entry about how 'from now on, I promise myself to start new and correct my mistakes and not regret anything! :D' I find that that doesn't work most of the time. I get all pumped, and then go back on those habits even worse than before. So no. I'm not starting over new. I can't. I'm not going to go and correct my mistakes either. I can't. Some things ARE impossible, after all. (:
And it's a lesson I teach myself over and over again. But I've kind of realized I'm not a really good teacher, even for myself. (:
I'm so tempted to say 'I'm going to start all over again!' I think I say that a lot. -_- Another bad habit? Wow I have a lot of those. o__o
Sarah, Izzy, and Claudine, hang in there! I know it feels like rock bottom a lot, but remember, it's not rock bottom unless you're telling yourself so. (: True, there are things you can't correct and you know they'll stay with you for a pretty long time, but that doesn't mean you have to let them control your life! You know what potential you have, and you know how far you can go with it. You've all set goals for yourself before, and you can't let these inconsequential obstacles get in you way. In fact, USE these mistakes and gain from them. Use them as motivation to do better, to double your efforts, to refocus on your initial goal.
Don't let silly things stop your beliefs, don't let them get in your vision, and most of all, don't let them interrupt your life. You're all way better than that. You can override this. And besides, you've forgotten how many people you have on the sidelines cheering you on. You know they always rush to help you when you trip, or lift you up when you succeed. Remember them, and remember that they're always there to help you. As long as you don't disregard them and take them for granted, they'll be your crutches for as long as you need them. (:
And I'm sorry if I acted like a total bitch to you any time. ): People tell me I do it subconsciously. Shocker, huh? -___- But I'm trying to watch myself and I tell myself over and over again to stop being so damn shallow. -_- Half the time on 11:11's, I wish to be less shallow. But apparently 11:11's don't work, and your wish doesn't work if you tell anyone, anyways. Ehhh oh well. I'll find some other way to wish. I think I'll go for the blowing dandelion thing. Yeah. That seems pretty magical to me. (:
And I SUCK at apologizing. I HATE apologizing. I know when it has to be done and why, but it's just so HARD for me. I just hate saying the words 'sorry' in a serious situation, and I don't know why. I think it's because it makes me seem submissive, and I hate losing? I have no idea, but it just bothers me so much. D:
But if there's one thing I pride myself in, I think I've perfected the emotion switch. :D You know when you're super down and your parents have been shouting at you for over and hour and you're all throwing things and slamming doors, and then you pop out of the house all smiley and bright and act as if you love your life? I got it dooown, man. But it's something that's probably required in my household, or else people would think we're mentally insane in here or something. -_- Acting and lying skills are such a necessity in life, and I hate that. Faking things just hides the hurt longer.
I'm so behind on my schedules. I haven't gotten a TCCi account, I haven't started on my career project, I haven't bought my Aloha ticket or MUN banquet money, I haven't found my pencil box or my PE shorts, and alkjdflskdjf I wish I could get a better grip on myself. -_-
I'm exhausted and exasperated. Three more years, and I'm out of here.
No not really. Pretty pictures just inspire me. YOU GUYS inspire me. :D Teehee. (:
Boooo Josh is a biyatch. He slapped me during my rehearsal so fcking loud everyone heard it. -_- And he's not letting me slap back. ):
CHRIS bring the Windex already! x) Did you guys know I have a very detailed drawing of male genitalia on my locker? ): And it's in Sharpie too, so I don't know how to get rid of it. -_- Lol this is why I still have some of my birthday pictures on there. They're to cover up that hideous thing. x)
ANGEL CHOIIII happy birthday! I hate how everyone's getting older than me. x) Did you finish all the food? You better have. >:O It was to get you fat, remember? But if you don't eat it, that kills the purpose. -_- EAT EAT EAT STUFF YOURSELF JUST GET THE FOOD DOWN YOUR THROAT. x)
Tiffany Liu I love you teehee. (: Dunno why I said that HAHA.
And by the way, guys. Just cause I'm looking doesn't mean I don't know. Just cause I can't see doesn't mean I'm oblivious. And just because I don't judge, doesn't mean other people don't. But you know what? I'm strangely unbothered. (: So carry on.
Hi why is everyone making ranting/deep posts today? I literally saw no 'this was my day today!' posts. It's like some Blogger-spread depression. So I would like this time to say.
I LOVE YOU! :D
Teehee that is all. (:
“Here’s my philosophy on dating. It’s important to have somebody that can make you laugh, somebody you can trust, somebody that, y’know, turns you on… And it’s really, really important that these three people don’t know each other.”
"IF A MAN FINDS YOU ATTRACTIVE YOU CANNOT BE FRIENDS Many women want to argue this point and say things like " I have lots of guy friends." Maybe. There are exactly 3 cases Intellectual Whores has identified whereby a guy and a girl can be friends: 1. The guy is gay 2. The guy does not find you attractive 3. The guy already has a woman much higher than you on the ladder"
'She says it's only a phase. He says it's forever.'
What's your entertainment? What's your source of happiness?
For this weekend, here's my list. (:
- Blogs. They're like little novels just waiting to be published and read by everyone. Lol I looked at my history today and the most visited site was my Blogger dashboard. HAHAHA teehee I love our snug little Blogger community. (not that 'snug' anymore, i guess? but stilll. :D) Oh and also. I sometimes stay on a certain blog page just to listen to their playlist over and over again. Ehehe especially Izzy's. :D
- Okay okay the facebook status fight between Charles and Tim. It's LOOLHAHALJFDLSJ the funniest thing I have ever read. It took me like ten minutes to get through the whole thing, but HAHA I loooove it. No offense to you guys, but none of it made sense. x) You guys are just trying to best each other out, you don't even pay attention to what you're actually typing and how it doesn't relate to what the person was talking about. So we get this little ping-pong battle, except the ball falls off the table each time, only to be picked up and smacked across again. Why are men BOYS so proud. -_-
- Angel + Jeremy + Archie + Tiffany. Crazy people. But HAHA they're the best. <3 Angel has a tiny tiny Yorkie named Tori. It's like the size of my teddy bear. x) And it's so ADORABLE ALSDJF I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT IT SO BAD I WANT TO EAT IT UP. Jeremy likes to look at girls' butts. I'll post the pictures up here and on facebook later. HAH Jeremy. Can't stop me. ;) Archie plays dirty at MarioKart. -_- TIFFANY HAS THIS CRAZY LAUGH. IT'S LIKE HALF HORSE WHINNY AND HALF DOG BARK LOOOL I don't even know what it is. x)
- Card games. You know I can finish a game of Solitaire under five minutes now? :D When I used to take thirty minutes HAHA.
- CAMERA. I have a new-found love for my camera and camera-whoring. But I barely have any memory left HAHA so I kinda have to delete half of my pictures after an insane session of camera-whoring. -_- Laaame. Oh btw my iPod's running out of memory too. D: Technology has limitations. ):
I finished bio SR hooray for me! (: But I haven't even started on my career project paper, and I still need to schedule an interview. ): Lucky for us, Brannen moved the due date to next Monday. So I still get another weekend to procrastinate. :D But I still have to read Anthem. ): Do we need to finish it by Tuesday? Because I think that's impossible for me. x)
So I'm eating cherries, and I just picked up one with mold on the bottom. D: So I'm afraid some of the ones I ate earlier were already mold-infested. I think I read somewhere mold is bad for you HAHA. Yeaaah. -_-
P.S. I just changed my cursor and it's a dinosaaaur. Teehee. Rawr :D
Up there in front of everyone, I felt so ridiculously proud of my class. Ridiculously. And it made smiling up there no effort at all. I hope you guys all felt the same; that placing doesn't matter as much as this dance pulling our class together. International Day this year was 'No Boundaries', and I think we lived up to that message. I love you, class of 2012! ♥
I just realized how much time ID practices took up. -_- And how much sleep I missed because of it. x) But now I miss them. D: We still have three more years, though! :D Teehee I love May. (:
I keep watching last year's ID act over and over agaaaain. And 3:51 still gives me the shivers. It never gets old, man. (:
Here it is. (:
I don't think other people will get the tinglies and the goosebumps as much, because they can't see the front people as well. The crazy F-squared, remember? (: And Emily and her crazy screaming and acting. I shiver at least four times watching it, and it's only a four-and-a-half-minute video. x) Silly Alice. (:
Family picture version 2 (or 3? or 4? we actually have a lot. o__o)!
Teehee you like my individual portraits? Or more like Izzy's, since she went camera-whoring with my camera. x)
Boys are so amazingly immature. -_-
ERIC ERIC OMG IT'S ERIC :D I CAN'T BELIEVE I TOUCHED ERICHANAMOTO! NO WAY NO WAY. (you're welcome. (: )
Mr. Dang has crazy triceps. Emily was going goo-goo all over them HAHAHA. (And so was Jeremy, but that's pretty o____o.)
RELAY FOR LIFE today! I was supposed to get there at like six, but I pressed the snooze button like 907534985 times, so I ended up going at like EIGHT. Didn't start till nine anyways, so :D.
I walked six miles. (: Aren't you proud of me? Now my feet hurt. -_- And OH I have like four tans on my feet. -____-
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:27 PM):okay OMGOSH.
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:29 PM):MY FOOT.
"tiffliu!" (11:33:32 PM):o_o
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:33 PM):IS LIKE A SEDIMENTARY ROCK.
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:58 PM):there's the flip-flop tan.
"tiffliu!" (11:33:59 PM):ROFLLLLL
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:04 PM):then there's the jeans tan.
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:09 PM):then there's the ankle tan.
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:14 PM):then the flat tan.
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:40 PM):IT'S SO FALSDKFJA;DSLFJK ANNOYING.
There you go. (:
SO SO SO at Relay, we learned that Jeremy likes to touch guys a lot a lot a lot. -____- COUGHANDREWCOUGH COUGHRAYMONDCOUGH He's always all up over Andrew HAHA. And then when Andrew leaves, it's Raymond's turn. -_- And it's so sad cause Raymond's so docile and doesn't care at all, but Andrew's just like...'oh baby ;)'. Oh yeah and he tried Chris too, but Chris is more like 'stay away; I have my older ladies.'
Oh yeah. Chris and his older ladies. Except this time they get pretty intimate COUGHCOUGH and touchytouchy, yes? (; Cougars make me sick.
And oh man. We learned that Raymond is a real hottie. And we've got pictures to prove it. (; If he wasn't so shy, he would have girls hanging off of each arm, each leg, and have them all up over them (instead of Jeremy).
And OH. Jeremy + me + Emily's soap opera is developing episode two! If you want a recap of episode one, you'll have to go ask Jeremy. x) He's creator of the series. I'm director; Emily's producer. :D This is going to be the new Gossip Girl! And it's rated like X or something HAHA. Pretty bad stuff go on. (; Pretty gory stuff too. o__o (Like you know, childbirth?)
I made this and you have no idea how in love I am with it right now. Thank you thank you Michelle - I saw this on your blog, and I HAD to make one. Oh and on the bottom of my page? The last four are ones I found myself. Not bad, hmm?
Music and photography. Why are they so damn beautiful.
So my mom took me to one today, and it made me feel like the most unprepared person ever. They kept going on and on and onnnn about how I need a better GPA and how I need to get more involved, yet at the same time, they tell me to get less involved so I can focus on my GPA. -___-
HarvardSquare2. Oh my gosh I hate that place. I don't even know why. It looks all professional and the people are pretty chill but al;sdfjasldkj there's just SOMETHING there that just makes me want to stay away. D:
So the first thing you do if you buy the counseling package (which is 5K, by the way) is you take this hugeass 4-hour test. And apparently this test is supposed to tell you what your abilities are and what colleges you should go for. Then you get your own personal counselor that guides through allll of high school. And man it all sounds good. You get help with letters of rec and college apps and interning and a;sdkljdlkfja;sd I know I'll want it pretty bad. But ehh.
I think I'd feel like I'm not controlling my OWN future anymore, but letting other people do it. And I don't need a capabilities test to tell me what I need to improve on. If other people can get into colleges without a counselor holding their hand, I'm pretty sure I won't be struggling that hard.
But then. Wow. It's way too temtpting. -_- And I don't know if I'm saying no because I sincerely don't want to, or because it's a pride issue.
Question: What's YOUR dream college?
I kinda like dreaming about UPenn and NYU HAHAHA. But I think I'll stick to Berkeley. (:
hi...im avery:) HAHA...swim meet was AWSOME!!! (i can add cussing at a ref at things i have done in life ) (he deserved it...lol)
Lol hi guys. (: So I'm at the MEDIA LAB right now, supposedly doing my career project, but it's kind of impossible, seeing as how I know nothing at all about art directors. -_____- I just had a Breik test, but it was so effing looong. D: So now I have to go back at snack later. ): And waste time (Vince was here ahahh) calculating areas of polygons. -_-
THEN in fifth, I have that Japanese test that I didn't study for at all. (SUKS2BU!!!!!!!!! - avery) But I have a pretty high A, so it won't drop that much. x)
Then Rosenberg worksheet that I didn't even start yet, along with the Rosenberg quiz. ):
Yeah three minutes left of class. I'll see you guys. Bye. (:
I just got home around now. And then realized I had like three tests tomorrow. ): Bad planning, Alice. -_-
LEAGUE MEET TODAY :D = last meet of the year. ): D:
Maaan I'm going to miss the seniors so effing much. ): Not to mention our guys varsity is going to die without them. x) But you have Mitchell and Avery and Sagar and we have Kirstie and Gabby and Deborah. (:
BUT I improved my 50 free PR. :D One second, but it's a lot. (: We were kind of disappointed that JV didn't have medals HAHAHA. Would've been pretty. (:
So we went to eat pho (i think?) after the meet. (: And lol I didn't have to squeeze onto the floor of Yeuting's car again HAHAHA. :D But I did manage to gain a surrogate dad (Michael) and a surrogate dad (Yeuting lol) and a surrogate aunt (Steph HAHA is there even such a thing?) and a surrogate uncle (Gary). And they're pretty nosy, too. -_- Especially the papa.
First time eating pho! Cause I'm paranoid of new foods. When I want to eat, I want it to be good and appetizing. (: But pho was surprisingly good. :D It's just pronounced weird. Sounds like 'fck' if you say it way fast.
Lol I swear the waiters were freaked when they saw us. HAHA. So we had Yeuting, Steph, Gary, Michael, Zach, Greg, Aaron, Timo, and me. (: Timo and Zach are too nosy. ): 'Tell us. Tell me. Tell him. TELLLL us.' And LOL Greg was wearing Yeuting's pink iSwim shirt, cause...he lost his? But it like gets attached to him somehow and he acts all feminine. He grabs his boobs and goes 'HAH my boobs are bigger than yours.' And now we have to go to Victoria's Secret to buy him a bra for senior gifts. -_-
Oh and when we were walking to 99 ranch (don't ask why), we heard this Chinese woman shouting in her car. ): She was talking about how someone wasn't handling reponsibiAnd like. I don't know if she was shouting at someone in the car or into the phone, but it really broke my heart, you know? Because I know that whoever was on the receiving end of the shouts would either be admirably strong and take it full force, or just break down and lose it. And I know how much strength and pain and perseverance it takes to be the first one. I admire anyone who can take such emotions full-on and let it bounce off. Cause that's just. Wow. How much can you really go through before finally cracking?
Brain and heart and brain and heart and brain and heart wtf why do you two keep fighting? Please shut up and leave me be. -_-
Oh btw I'm pretty sick of this. (: So I quit and I give up. I guess Charles had always been right. (: The fool can't phrase anything without offending people, though. x) And oh yes, I'm a quitter. Alice almost always walks out of every promise and deal she makes. So sorry in advance.
I just KNEW ______ would warp the _______ and now look at us! The whole ______'s been screwed and effed and we would've been so much better off if ______ hadn't come and crashed the party. Especially a few out there who have been _______ and _______ with. ): Why can't we go back to where we were?
Ouch. Ow ow ow ow. Why isn't my brain trying to take over? ): Cause I'm on logic's side, not mine. Never trust the untrustworthy. (:
This post has stopped making sense! That's my cue to. sign off. and do something worthwhile. (: <3
I effing love life right now. - MUN award! - RedCross member of the year! - RedCross cabinet! - Bottom Locker! - all you wonderful beautiful people! - and TIM. :D
I'm kinda just waiting for this rollercoaster to crash and burn, though. I really do love all these random strokes of luck, but holy crap. The higher I go, the faster I'll come down. And I'm pretty damn scared right now.
So I'm going to catch every 11:11, keep my fingers and heart crossed, close my eyes while whispering wishes, remember to send a prayer to the crescent moon everyday, and hang onto this crazy drive you guys put me through. (:
Eheh I think I want to respond to comments since I got so many. B) - Shelley! Remember when you said you were going to introduce me to Zach before you guys graduated? (: The AZ and the ZA want to meet. ): The last person in the school wants to meet the first person in the school before the trend breaks. D: - Joe! I gain four feet on your back. :D - Priyanka! No 'I'm Yours' cause I already have that one. x) Same with 'Lucky' and 'If It Kills Me'. If you look back at my posts, I have another one out there dedicated to JMraz songs. (: - Michelle! We actually cheated; Angel was standing on a bench. x) But shhh. No one knows that. :DDD Hm nice verification word. Are you trying to imply something? ;) - Archie! LOL I SAW THAT. 'My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard...' and plus the butt-shaking too HAHAHA. - Tim! HAHAHA you're pretty bad to Avi. x) And why research all that up when you probably know all about it? (; - Chris! He just wanted to be on my blog HAHAHA so there he goes. (: And he didn't even comment on it; acknowledging it. -_- LAAAME. - Izzy! No YOU'RE cute. (;
Reliving Jason Mraz?! - The Remedy - A Beautiful Mess - Life is Wonderful - Live High - Butterfly I love this guy. ♥
ID practice todaaay. (: Hula had like four people - me, Crislyn, Allen, Joe! WHERE ARE THE REST OF YOU SLACKERS. -___- So we went over dances for an hour, played for an hour, danced for another hour. (: Why are these pictures so small. -_- But you can see them. (: JOE's carrying TWO people on his back no way no way! :D
Oh we betted (or bet?) on pushups for Poker. ): Which ain't faaaair, cause I can't do more than ten pushups without dying HAHAHA. But Lucien bluffs like mad, and so we play along, but ehhh. -__-
"timchai!" (7:35:05 PM):im bipolar
"timchai!" (7:35:09 PM):actually
"timchai!" (7:35:14 PM):i have sps
"timchai!" (7:35:25 PM):i was diagnosed a couple years ago
P3guin4lic3 (7:35:31 PM):for reals for reals?
"timchai!" (7:35:41 PM):sps
"timchai!" (7:35:41 PM):is
"timchai!" (7:35:44 PM):split
"timchai!" (7:35:47 PM):personality
"timchai!" (7:35:50 PM):syndrome
P3guin4lic3 (7:35:56 PM):for reals? o___o
"timchai!" (7:35:59 PM):no
"timchai!" (7:36:01 PM):LOL
P3guin4lic3 (7:36:02 PM):-___-
P3guin4lic3 (7:36:03 PM):TIM.
P3guin4lic3 (7:36:05 PM):I HATECHOO.
Gullible. -_____-x
lavieboyfilm (7:37:50 PM):its actually
lavieboyfilm (7:37:54 PM):small penis syndrome
lavieboyfilm (7:37:56 PM):not joking
Oh btw Tim, SPS actually stands for 'small penis syndrome'. LOSER. Avi you're on my blog now yaaay! :D :D :D
ANGEL AND TIFFLIU OWE ME monaaay. (: CATHERINE still owes me four bucks. ALICE CHO owes me seven. And I probably still have a lot of owed money flying out there somewhere HAHA.
"When I fall in love I take my time; There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind; You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why -"
I found this on Archie's blog and I kinda fell in love with it? :D It's so damn adorable. <3 SHIVVY remember our little Calvin and Hobbes stories? (;
Swim meet = pretty demoralizing. x) But it's alright. We still got league. (: After league is when I start getting sad about the leaving seniors. ):
BL auditions = I hate Chris. Pretty hard reading lines for a guy that gets called back for five roles.
You know, I wrote whole paragraphs about the meet and auditions earlier, but they got erased. ): So bear with the little sentences you get. (:
So today I met Avi's friend Jason. He's white. :D He's also pretty conceited. x)
mrwright1993 (10:41:02 PM):you know johnny depp?
P3guin4lic3 (10:41:08 PM):NO I LOVE HIM.
mrwright1993 (10:41:10 PM):I'm hotter.
No one beats Johnny Depp, fool. (;
"timchai!" (10:19:39 PM):hatechoo
P3guin4lic3 (10:19:49 PM):hate YOU. >:O
"timchai!" (10:38:22 PM):<3>
P3guin4lic3 (10:38:28 PM):<3>
GEEEEZ TIM why are you so bipolar. You're like a girl that's permanently on her period. D: But as long as you don't give me your crazy silent treatments, I'm fine. <3
I love weekends! They're so chill. (: (Until Sunday night, duh.) Tomorrow, I plan to upload songs into my iPod, upload redcross banquet pictures, paint my nails, finish my book, and plaaay. (:
Cutting up rubber balls and putting them in boxes. I don't even think you remember that.
Considering that career project is due tomorrow, I say my horoscope for today can't get any lamer. "It's a perfect lazy day -- as long as you can afford to do nothing, that is! Anything essential takes nine times longer than usual, so if you can put anything off, you are much better off doing so."
LAME. Thanks for promoting procrastination, Yahoo.
On another subject, Aloha was hella fun. (: I really couldn't hear anything when the dance was over HAHA. So my mom got mad cause she was talking to me about some random college stuff in the car but I didn't hear her cause I wasn't listening AND the ringing in my ears overrode her talking. So I heard muttering until she punched me. It's what I get for our class always always always going in front of the speakers. -_- Teehee I love us, though! :D And the DJ was actually pretty good this time. (: (Mainly cause he played 'Satisfaction' two times ehehe. :D)
But now I have to wait three months and a half till Hello. x) So that gives me three months and a half to convince these losers to go to a dance. :D
I should be at MUN banquet right now. ): But I don't have the money and I don't have the time and I really don't have the will. ): Sorry Frankie and Tiff. D:
Damn I should stop judging people, huh? It's such a habit, though. ): Like biting my lips and fingers and my crazy temper.
No I'm not going to post a super-long entry about how 'from now on, I promise myself to start new and correct my mistakes and not regret anything! :D' I find that that doesn't work most of the time. I get all pumped, and then go back on those habits even worse than before. So no. I'm not starting over new. I can't. I'm not going to go and correct my mistakes either. I can't. Some things ARE impossible, after all. (:
And it's a lesson I teach myself over and over again. But I've kind of realized I'm not a really good teacher, even for myself. (:
I'm so tempted to say 'I'm going to start all over again!' I think I say that a lot. -_- Another bad habit? Wow I have a lot of those. o__o
Sarah, Izzy, and Claudine, hang in there! I know it feels like rock bottom a lot, but remember, it's not rock bottom unless you're telling yourself so. (: True, there are things you can't correct and you know they'll stay with you for a pretty long time, but that doesn't mean you have to let them control your life! You know what potential you have, and you know how far you can go with it. You've all set goals for yourself before, and you can't let these inconsequential obstacles get in you way. In fact, USE these mistakes and gain from them. Use them as motivation to do better, to double your efforts, to refocus on your initial goal.
Don't let silly things stop your beliefs, don't let them get in your vision, and most of all, don't let them interrupt your life. You're all way better than that. You can override this. And besides, you've forgotten how many people you have on the sidelines cheering you on. You know they always rush to help you when you trip, or lift you up when you succeed. Remember them, and remember that they're always there to help you. As long as you don't disregard them and take them for granted, they'll be your crutches for as long as you need them. (:
And I'm sorry if I acted like a total bitch to you any time. ): People tell me I do it subconsciously. Shocker, huh? -___- But I'm trying to watch myself and I tell myself over and over again to stop being so damn shallow. -_- Half the time on 11:11's, I wish to be less shallow. But apparently 11:11's don't work, and your wish doesn't work if you tell anyone, anyways. Ehhh oh well. I'll find some other way to wish. I think I'll go for the blowing dandelion thing. Yeah. That seems pretty magical to me. (:
And I SUCK at apologizing. I HATE apologizing. I know when it has to be done and why, but it's just so HARD for me. I just hate saying the words 'sorry' in a serious situation, and I don't know why. I think it's because it makes me seem submissive, and I hate losing? I have no idea, but it just bothers me so much. D:
But if there's one thing I pride myself in, I think I've perfected the emotion switch. :D You know when you're super down and your parents have been shouting at you for over and hour and you're all throwing things and slamming doors, and then you pop out of the house all smiley and bright and act as if you love your life? I got it dooown, man. But it's something that's probably required in my household, or else people would think we're mentally insane in here or something. -_- Acting and lying skills are such a necessity in life, and I hate that. Faking things just hides the hurt longer.
I'm so behind on my schedules. I haven't gotten a TCCi account, I haven't started on my career project, I haven't bought my Aloha ticket or MUN banquet money, I haven't found my pencil box or my PE shorts, and alkjdflskdjf I wish I could get a better grip on myself. -_-
I'm exhausted and exasperated. Three more years, and I'm out of here.
No not really. Pretty pictures just inspire me. YOU GUYS inspire me. :D Teehee. (:
Boooo Josh is a biyatch. He slapped me during my rehearsal so fcking loud everyone heard it. -_- And he's not letting me slap back. ):
CHRIS bring the Windex already! x) Did you guys know I have a very detailed drawing of male genitalia on my locker? ): And it's in Sharpie too, so I don't know how to get rid of it. -_- Lol this is why I still have some of my birthday pictures on there. They're to cover up that hideous thing. x)
ANGEL CHOIIII happy birthday! I hate how everyone's getting older than me. x) Did you finish all the food? You better have. >:O It was to get you fat, remember? But if you don't eat it, that kills the purpose. -_- EAT EAT EAT STUFF YOURSELF JUST GET THE FOOD DOWN YOUR THROAT. x)
Tiffany Liu I love you teehee. (: Dunno why I said that HAHA.
And by the way, guys. Just cause I'm looking doesn't mean I don't know. Just cause I can't see doesn't mean I'm oblivious. And just because I don't judge, doesn't mean other people don't. But you know what? I'm strangely unbothered. (: So carry on.
Hi why is everyone making ranting/deep posts today? I literally saw no 'this was my day today!' posts. It's like some Blogger-spread depression. So I would like this time to say.
I LOVE YOU! :D
Teehee that is all. (:
“Here’s my philosophy on dating. It’s important to have somebody that can make you laugh, somebody you can trust, somebody that, y’know, turns you on… And it’s really, really important that these three people don’t know each other.”
"IF A MAN FINDS YOU ATTRACTIVE YOU CANNOT BE FRIENDS Many women want to argue this point and say things like " I have lots of guy friends." Maybe. There are exactly 3 cases Intellectual Whores has identified whereby a guy and a girl can be friends: 1. The guy is gay 2. The guy does not find you attractive 3. The guy already has a woman much higher than you on the ladder"
'She says it's only a phase. He says it's forever.'
What's your entertainment? What's your source of happiness?
For this weekend, here's my list. (:
- Blogs. They're like little novels just waiting to be published and read by everyone. Lol I looked at my history today and the most visited site was my Blogger dashboard. HAHAHA teehee I love our snug little Blogger community. (not that 'snug' anymore, i guess? but stilll. :D) Oh and also. I sometimes stay on a certain blog page just to listen to their playlist over and over again. Ehehe especially Izzy's. :D
- Okay okay the facebook status fight between Charles and Tim. It's LOOLHAHALJFDLSJ the funniest thing I have ever read. It took me like ten minutes to get through the whole thing, but HAHA I loooove it. No offense to you guys, but none of it made sense. x) You guys are just trying to best each other out, you don't even pay attention to what you're actually typing and how it doesn't relate to what the person was talking about. So we get this little ping-pong battle, except the ball falls off the table each time, only to be picked up and smacked across again. Why are men BOYS so proud. -_-
- Angel + Jeremy + Archie + Tiffany. Crazy people. But HAHA they're the best. <3 Angel has a tiny tiny Yorkie named Tori. It's like the size of my teddy bear. x) And it's so ADORABLE ALSDJF I WANT IT I WANT IT I WANT IT SO BAD I WANT TO EAT IT UP. Jeremy likes to look at girls' butts. I'll post the pictures up here and on facebook later. HAH Jeremy. Can't stop me. ;) Archie plays dirty at MarioKart. -_- TIFFANY HAS THIS CRAZY LAUGH. IT'S LIKE HALF HORSE WHINNY AND HALF DOG BARK LOOOL I don't even know what it is. x)
- Card games. You know I can finish a game of Solitaire under five minutes now? :D When I used to take thirty minutes HAHA.
- CAMERA. I have a new-found love for my camera and camera-whoring. But I barely have any memory left HAHA so I kinda have to delete half of my pictures after an insane session of camera-whoring. -_- Laaame. Oh btw my iPod's running out of memory too. D: Technology has limitations. ):
I finished bio SR hooray for me! (: But I haven't even started on my career project paper, and I still need to schedule an interview. ): Lucky for us, Brannen moved the due date to next Monday. So I still get another weekend to procrastinate. :D But I still have to read Anthem. ): Do we need to finish it by Tuesday? Because I think that's impossible for me. x)
So I'm eating cherries, and I just picked up one with mold on the bottom. D: So I'm afraid some of the ones I ate earlier were already mold-infested. I think I read somewhere mold is bad for you HAHA. Yeaaah. -_-
P.S. I just changed my cursor and it's a dinosaaaur. Teehee. Rawr :D
Up there in front of everyone, I felt so ridiculously proud of my class. Ridiculously. And it made smiling up there no effort at all. I hope you guys all felt the same; that placing doesn't matter as much as this dance pulling our class together. International Day this year was 'No Boundaries', and I think we lived up to that message. I love you, class of 2012! ♥
I just realized how much time ID practices took up. -_- And how much sleep I missed because of it. x) But now I miss them. D: We still have three more years, though! :D Teehee I love May. (:
I keep watching last year's ID act over and over agaaaain. And 3:51 still gives me the shivers. It never gets old, man. (:
Here it is. (:
I don't think other people will get the tinglies and the goosebumps as much, because they can't see the front people as well. The crazy F-squared, remember? (: And Emily and her crazy screaming and acting. I shiver at least four times watching it, and it's only a four-and-a-half-minute video. x) Silly Alice. (:
Family picture version 2 (or 3? or 4? we actually have a lot. o__o)!
Teehee you like my individual portraits? Or more like Izzy's, since she went camera-whoring with my camera. x)
Boys are so amazingly immature. -_-
ERIC ERIC OMG IT'S ERIC :D I CAN'T BELIEVE I TOUCHED ERICHANAMOTO! NO WAY NO WAY. (you're welcome. (: )
Mr. Dang has crazy triceps. Emily was going goo-goo all over them HAHAHA. (And so was Jeremy, but that's pretty o____o.)
RELAY FOR LIFE today! I was supposed to get there at like six, but I pressed the snooze button like 907534985 times, so I ended up going at like EIGHT. Didn't start till nine anyways, so :D.
I walked six miles. (: Aren't you proud of me? Now my feet hurt. -_- And OH I have like four tans on my feet. -____-
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:27 PM):okay OMGOSH.
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:29 PM):MY FOOT.
"tiffliu!" (11:33:32 PM):o_o
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:33 PM):IS LIKE A SEDIMENTARY ROCK.
P3guin4lic3 (11:33:58 PM):there's the flip-flop tan.
"tiffliu!" (11:33:59 PM):ROFLLLLL
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:04 PM):then there's the jeans tan.
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:09 PM):then there's the ankle tan.
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:14 PM):then the flat tan.
P3guin4lic3 (11:34:40 PM):IT'S SO FALSDKFJA;DSLFJK ANNOYING.
There you go. (:
SO SO SO at Relay, we learned that Jeremy likes to touch guys a lot a lot a lot. -____- COUGHANDREWCOUGH COUGHRAYMONDCOUGH He's always all up over Andrew HAHA. And then when Andrew leaves, it's Raymond's turn. -_- And it's so sad cause Raymond's so docile and doesn't care at all, but Andrew's just like...'oh baby ;)'. Oh yeah and he tried Chris too, but Chris is more like 'stay away; I have my older ladies.'
Oh yeah. Chris and his older ladies. Except this time they get pretty intimate COUGHCOUGH and touchytouchy, yes? (; Cougars make me sick.
And oh man. We learned that Raymond is a real hottie. And we've got pictures to prove it. (; If he wasn't so shy, he would have girls hanging off of each arm, each leg, and have them all up over them (instead of Jeremy).
And OH. Jeremy + me + Emily's soap opera is developing episode two! If you want a recap of episode one, you'll have to go ask Jeremy. x) He's creator of the series. I'm director; Emily's producer. :D This is going to be the new Gossip Girl! And it's rated like X or something HAHA. Pretty bad stuff go on. (; Pretty gory stuff too. o__o (Like you know, childbirth?)
I made this and you have no idea how in love I am with it right now. Thank you thank you Michelle - I saw this on your blog, and I HAD to make one. Oh and on the bottom of my page? The last four are ones I found myself. Not bad, hmm?
Music and photography. Why are they so damn beautiful.
So my mom took me to one today, and it made me feel like the most unprepared person ever. They kept going on and on and onnnn about how I need a better GPA and how I need to get more involved, yet at the same time, they tell me to get less involved so I can focus on my GPA. -___-
HarvardSquare2. Oh my gosh I hate that place. I don't even know why. It looks all professional and the people are pretty chill but al;sdfjasldkj there's just SOMETHING there that just makes me want to stay away. D:
So the first thing you do if you buy the counseling package (which is 5K, by the way) is you take this hugeass 4-hour test. And apparently this test is supposed to tell you what your abilities are and what colleges you should go for. Then you get your own personal counselor that guides through allll of high school. And man it all sounds good. You get help with letters of rec and college apps and interning and a;sdkljdlkfja;sd I know I'll want it pretty bad. But ehh.
I think I'd feel like I'm not controlling my OWN future anymore, but letting other people do it. And I don't need a capabilities test to tell me what I need to improve on. If other people can get into colleges without a counselor holding their hand, I'm pretty sure I won't be struggling that hard.
But then. Wow. It's way too temtpting. -_- And I don't know if I'm saying no because I sincerely don't want to, or because it's a pride issue.
Question: What's YOUR dream college?
I kinda like dreaming about UPenn and NYU HAHAHA. But I think I'll stick to Berkeley. (:
hi...im avery:) HAHA...swim meet was AWSOME!!! (i can add cussing at a ref at things i have done in life ) (he deserved it...lol)
Lol hi guys. (: So I'm at the MEDIA LAB right now, supposedly doing my career project, but it's kind of impossible, seeing as how I know nothing at all about art directors. -_____- I just had a Breik test, but it was so effing looong. D: So now I have to go back at snack later. ): And waste time (Vince was here ahahh) calculating areas of polygons. -_-
THEN in fifth, I have that Japanese test that I didn't study for at all. (SUKS2BU!!!!!!!!! - avery) But I have a pretty high A, so it won't drop that much. x)
Then Rosenberg worksheet that I didn't even start yet, along with the Rosenberg quiz. ):
Yeah three minutes left of class. I'll see you guys. Bye. (:
I just got home around now. And then realized I had like three tests tomorrow. ): Bad planning, Alice. -_-
LEAGUE MEET TODAY :D = last meet of the year. ): D:
Maaan I'm going to miss the seniors so effing much. ): Not to mention our guys varsity is going to die without them. x) But you have Mitchell and Avery and Sagar and we have Kirstie and Gabby and Deborah. (:
BUT I improved my 50 free PR. :D One second, but it's a lot. (: We were kind of disappointed that JV didn't have medals HAHAHA. Would've been pretty. (:
So we went to eat pho (i think?) after the meet. (: And lol I didn't have to squeeze onto the floor of Yeuting's car again HAHAHA. :D But I did manage to gain a surrogate dad (Michael) and a surrogate dad (Yeuting lol) and a surrogate aunt (Steph HAHA is there even such a thing?) and a surrogate uncle (Gary). And they're pretty nosy, too. -_- Especially the papa.
First time eating pho! Cause I'm paranoid of new foods. When I want to eat, I want it to be good and appetizing. (: But pho was surprisingly good. :D It's just pronounced weird. Sounds like 'fck' if you say it way fast.
Lol I swear the waiters were freaked when they saw us. HAHA. So we had Yeuting, Steph, Gary, Michael, Zach, Greg, Aaron, Timo, and me. (: Timo and Zach are too nosy. ): 'Tell us. Tell me. Tell him. TELLLL us.' And LOL Greg was wearing Yeuting's pink iSwim shirt, cause...he lost his? But it like gets attached to him somehow and he acts all feminine. He grabs his boobs and goes 'HAH my boobs are bigger than yours.' And now we have to go to Victoria's Secret to buy him a bra for senior gifts. -_-
Oh and when we were walking to 99 ranch (don't ask why), we heard this Chinese woman shouting in her car. ): She was talking about how someone wasn't handling reponsibiAnd like. I don't know if she was shouting at someone in the car or into the phone, but it really broke my heart, you know? Because I know that whoever was on the receiving end of the shouts would either be admirably strong and take it full force, or just break down and lose it. And I know how much strength and pain and perseverance it takes to be the first one. I admire anyone who can take such emotions full-on and let it bounce off. Cause that's just. Wow. How much can you really go through before finally cracking?
Brain and heart and brain and heart and brain and heart wtf why do you two keep fighting? Please shut up and leave me be. -_-
Oh btw I'm pretty sick of this. (: So I quit and I give up. I guess Charles had always been right. (: The fool can't phrase anything without offending people, though. x) And oh yes, I'm a quitter. Alice almost always walks out of every promise and deal she makes. So sorry in advance.
I just KNEW ______ would warp the _______ and now look at us! The whole ______'s been screwed and effed and we would've been so much better off if ______ hadn't come and crashed the party. Especially a few out there who have been _______ and _______ with. ): Why can't we go back to where we were?
Ouch. Ow ow ow ow. Why isn't my brain trying to take over? ): Cause I'm on logic's side, not mine. Never trust the untrustworthy. (:
This post has stopped making sense! That's my cue to. sign off. and do something worthwhile. (: <3
I effing love life right now. - MUN award! - RedCross member of the year! - RedCross cabinet! - Bottom Locker! - all you wonderful beautiful people! - and TIM. :D
I'm kinda just waiting for this rollercoaster to crash and burn, though. I really do love all these random strokes of luck, but holy crap. The higher I go, the faster I'll come down. And I'm pretty damn scared right now.
So I'm going to catch every 11:11, keep my fingers and heart crossed, close my eyes while whispering wishes, remember to send a prayer to the crescent moon everyday, and hang onto this crazy drive you guys put me through. (:
Eheh I think I want to respond to comments since I got so many. B) - Shelley! Remember when you said you were going to introduce me to Zach before you guys graduated? (: The AZ and the ZA want to meet. ): The last person in the school wants to meet the first person in the school before the trend breaks. D: - Joe! I gain four feet on your back. :D - Priyanka! No 'I'm Yours' cause I already have that one. x) Same with 'Lucky' and 'If It Kills Me'. If you look back at my posts, I have another one out there dedicated to JMraz songs. (: - Michelle! We actually cheated; Angel was standing on a bench. x) But shhh. No one knows that. :DDD Hm nice verification word. Are you trying to imply something? ;) - Archie! LOL I SAW THAT. 'My milkshake brings all the boys to the yard...' and plus the butt-shaking too HAHAHA. - Tim! HAHAHA you're pretty bad to Avi. x) And why research all that up when you probably know all about it? (; - Chris! He just wanted to be on my blog HAHAHA so there he goes. (: And he didn't even comment on it; acknowledging it. -_- LAAAME. - Izzy! No YOU'RE cute. (;
Reliving Jason Mraz?! - The Remedy - A Beautiful Mess - Life is Wonderful - Live High - Butterfly I love this guy. ♥
ID practice todaaay. (: Hula had like four people - me, Crislyn, Allen, Joe! WHERE ARE THE REST OF YOU SLACKERS. -___- So we went over dances for an hour, played for an hour, danced for another hour. (: Why are these pictures so small. -_- But you can see them. (: JOE's carrying TWO people on his back no way no way! :D
Oh we betted (or bet?) on pushups for Poker. ): Which ain't faaaair, cause I can't do more than ten pushups without dying HAHAHA. But Lucien bluffs like mad, and so we play along, but ehhh. -__-
"timchai!" (7:35:05 PM):im bipolar
"timchai!" (7:35:09 PM):actually
"timchai!" (7:35:14 PM):i have sps
"timchai!" (7:35:25 PM):i was diagnosed a couple years ago
P3guin4lic3 (7:35:31 PM):for reals for reals?
"timchai!" (7:35:41 PM):sps
"timchai!" (7:35:41 PM):is
"timchai!" (7:35:44 PM):split
"timchai!" (7:35:47 PM):personality
"timchai!" (7:35:50 PM):syndrome
P3guin4lic3 (7:35:56 PM):for reals? o___o
"timchai!" (7:35:59 PM):no
"timchai!" (7:36:01 PM):LOL
P3guin4lic3 (7:36:02 PM):-___-
P3guin4lic3 (7:36:03 PM):TIM.
P3guin4lic3 (7:36:05 PM):I HATECHOO.
Gullible. -_____-x
lavieboyfilm (7:37:50 PM):its actually
lavieboyfilm (7:37:54 PM):small penis syndrome
lavieboyfilm (7:37:56 PM):not joking
Oh btw Tim, SPS actually stands for 'small penis syndrome'. LOSER. Avi you're on my blog now yaaay! :D :D :D
ANGEL AND TIFFLIU OWE ME monaaay. (: CATHERINE still owes me four bucks. ALICE CHO owes me seven. And I probably still have a lot of owed money flying out there somewhere HAHA.
"When I fall in love I take my time; There's no need to hurry when I'm making up my mind; You can turn off the sun but I'm still gonna shine and I'll tell you why -"
I found this on Archie's blog and I kinda fell in love with it? :D It's so damn adorable. <3 SHIVVY remember our little Calvin and Hobbes stories? (;
Swim meet = pretty demoralizing. x) But it's alright. We still got league. (: After league is when I start getting sad about the leaving seniors. ):
BL auditions = I hate Chris. Pretty hard reading lines for a guy that gets called back for five roles.
You know, I wrote whole paragraphs about the meet and auditions earlier, but they got erased. ): So bear with the little sentences you get. (:
So today I met Avi's friend Jason. He's white. :D He's also pretty conceited. x)
mrwright1993 (10:41:02 PM):you know johnny depp?
P3guin4lic3 (10:41:08 PM):NO I LOVE HIM.
mrwright1993 (10:41:10 PM):I'm hotter.
No one beats Johnny Depp, fool. (;
"timchai!" (10:19:39 PM):hatechoo
P3guin4lic3 (10:19:49 PM):hate YOU. >:O
"timchai!" (10:38:22 PM):<3>
P3guin4lic3 (10:38:28 PM):<3>
GEEEEZ TIM why are you so bipolar. You're like a girl that's permanently on her period. D: But as long as you don't give me your crazy silent treatments, I'm fine. <3
I love weekends! They're so chill. (: (Until Sunday night, duh.) Tomorrow, I plan to upload songs into my iPod, upload redcross banquet pictures, paint my nails, finish my book, and plaaay. (:
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
