cause you told me you were reading this. Btw thanks for not responding on AIM facker.
Haaaay guys yeah I don't know why I'm blogging so much! I think it's cause I feel really really really emotionally offset by everything around me, and maybe the pressure of prioritizing all my shit's finally gone to my head. But I still suck ass at time management. I meant, it's 7 PM and I've barely skimmed math and human. WTF AM I DOING TO MYSELF. I think once I accept something, I'm in the mentality that there's no way it can improve. But yeah. I don't know.
I JUST STARTED IT I'M NOT GONNA LOST IT goodness Alice gain some confidence PLEASE. I think I'm conflicting with myself too much and it gets my insides all mushy and messy and now I get stomach aches too much! ): There's like two people living inside of me who NEVER AGREE. IT'S SO FRUSTRATING and yet I can't get rid of it.
But yeah I have a hard time admitting stuff to myself and maybe that's why? And I lost that light at the end, so I feel like I'm scrambling for nothing at allll. I'm losing motivation everywhere and losing sight of what I really want and UGH. You know that sinking feeling you get when you think of a specific thing? I get it when I think of - soccer - because I really do feel like I've stopped trying at all - _____________ disappear for a while PLEASE you're making my mind go into overdrive - COMPS?! - GRADES?! - my intership (the guy never contacts me, I swear I'm gonna get a C in that class) - FORMAL cause I don't have an overcoat/accessories/purse. --x - sleep cause obviously I'm not getting any
I'm losing weight and I'm worrying! I've weighed up to 105 before (I think during swim) but I'm at a 97 now and I'm really really worried because soccer is supposed to be making me HEAVIER with muscle and more food, but wtf?! And I'm losing my appetite a lot recently, so I eat at really odd times... I swear I don't have an eating disorder, though. I promise. Maybe things'll get better after I pass this hell week up? Maaaaybe; I'm gonna go nap now cause I'm flipping TIRED and my eyes won't stay open.
Oh yeah I fell asleep during my English final today. Bender was standing right next to me in chem so I couldn't fall alseep = good thing! I still bombed it though, even though he hinted my answer was wrong by coughing when I wrote it down LOL.
cause you told me you were reading this. Btw thanks for not responding on AIM facker.
Haaaay guys yeah I don't know why I'm blogging so much! I think it's cause I feel really really really emotionally offset by everything around me, and maybe the pressure of prioritizing all my shit's finally gone to my head. But I still suck ass at time management. I meant, it's 7 PM and I've barely skimmed math and human. WTF AM I DOING TO MYSELF. I think once I accept something, I'm in the mentality that there's no way it can improve. But yeah. I don't know.
I JUST STARTED IT I'M NOT GONNA LOST IT goodness Alice gain some confidence PLEASE. I think I'm conflicting with myself too much and it gets my insides all mushy and messy and now I get stomach aches too much! ): There's like two people living inside of me who NEVER AGREE. IT'S SO FRUSTRATING and yet I can't get rid of it.
But yeah I have a hard time admitting stuff to myself and maybe that's why? And I lost that light at the end, so I feel like I'm scrambling for nothing at allll. I'm losing motivation everywhere and losing sight of what I really want and UGH. You know that sinking feeling you get when you think of a specific thing? I get it when I think of - soccer - because I really do feel like I've stopped trying at all - _____________ disappear for a while PLEASE you're making my mind go into overdrive - COMPS?! - GRADES?! - my intership (the guy never contacts me, I swear I'm gonna get a C in that class) - FORMAL cause I don't have an overcoat/accessories/purse. --x - sleep cause obviously I'm not getting any
I'm losing weight and I'm worrying! I've weighed up to 105 before (I think during swim) but I'm at a 97 now and I'm really really worried because soccer is supposed to be making me HEAVIER with muscle and more food, but wtf?! And I'm losing my appetite a lot recently, so I eat at really odd times... I swear I don't have an eating disorder, though. I promise. Maybe things'll get better after I pass this hell week up? Maaaaybe; I'm gonna go nap now cause I'm flipping TIRED and my eyes won't stay open.
Oh yeah I fell asleep during my English final today. Bender was standing right next to me in chem so I couldn't fall alseep = good thing! I still bombed it though, even though he hinted my answer was wrong by coughing when I wrote it down LOL.
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
