I wish I could just take a one day / week / month break from all this stress. Sometimes I look at the mess in my room with all my papers and textbooks and clothing thrown everywhere and the comfort food cluttering my desk and the cough / fever / headache medicine stuffed in a corner and I just ;KAJFKLSFJDASDKF GET ME OUT OF HERE. The stress is just overload, and I KNOW I can handle it, but I do so in such an ineffective way that I just want to cry sometimes. I guess I could complain about hating school, but mostly I hate myself because of how I deal with it. I just wish I had some time to just recollect myself and start over; bad habits tend to build up with no outlet.
But I guess there's always some circumstance or person or event or idea to look forward to, so I just have to keep finding one for every minute of the day so I know that all this isn't going to a waste. But when the reward isn't worth the work...then I guess that's where my motivation starts slipping and I fall into the mentality of pushing things to the last minute. I think that's where procrastination starts - when motivation stops. I need more motivation! Have to keep myself going have to keep myself going have to keep myself going love love love butterflies rainbows hugs wins not losses him him him encouragement family love 11:11 forgive and forget warmth beds happiness?
I'm so ridiculously tired that I can literally knock out anywhere. At least I can get to school relatively late tomorrow, but FRAAACK soccer at 2:30?! WTFWTFWTF how am I supposed to study for chem. ): I'm efffffed.
I wish I could just take a one day / week / month break from all this stress. Sometimes I look at the mess in my room with all my papers and textbooks and clothing thrown everywhere and the comfort food cluttering my desk and the cough / fever / headache medicine stuffed in a corner and I just ;KAJFKLSFJDASDKF GET ME OUT OF HERE. The stress is just overload, and I KNOW I can handle it, but I do so in such an ineffective way that I just want to cry sometimes. I guess I could complain about hating school, but mostly I hate myself because of how I deal with it. I just wish I had some time to just recollect myself and start over; bad habits tend to build up with no outlet.
But I guess there's always some circumstance or person or event or idea to look forward to, so I just have to keep finding one for every minute of the day so I know that all this isn't going to a waste. But when the reward isn't worth the work...then I guess that's where my motivation starts slipping and I fall into the mentality of pushing things to the last minute. I think that's where procrastination starts - when motivation stops. I need more motivation! Have to keep myself going have to keep myself going have to keep myself going love love love butterflies rainbows hugs wins not losses him him him encouragement family love 11:11 forgive and forget warmth beds happiness?
I'm so ridiculously tired that I can literally knock out anywhere. At least I can get to school relatively late tomorrow, but FRAAACK soccer at 2:30?! WTFWTFWTF how am I supposed to study for chem. ): I'm efffffed.
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
