I'M SO TIRED OF THIS. Can you not be so al;sdjfadsflk! ): Yeah okay no more squealing from me, but still...sigh. I kinda want to make a private blog...but I'm too lazy to make one and a diary on Word isn't just...good enough. SIGHHLDJFLSIGHSIGH I sigh a lot these days. ): BUT I'M SCARED; I'm afraid that in two weeks everything we had is just going to slowly move away, and it's not something that's easy to just jumpstart again... It takes time and it took a LOT of time and now all that's going to waste and it makes me feel like such a disappointment because I'm too SCARED to do anything and too SCARED to step out of line and out of my comfort zone and too SCARED to just wait for a reaction from you! Sigh I hate myself for being so hesitant sometimes...
And I honestly love love love swim to death and I will cry like mad at banquet cause I can't stand facing another year without their support... )': I'm only a sophomore and only HALF of my high school career is over, but it feels like I'm almost at the end of the road and everything is just rushing in front of me and I don't even have time to stop and cherish everything. I'll have to make an individual post for every member of the team who made a difference for me and TRUST me, that's a pretty big number cause everyone is just so FUCKING AMAZING.
And I know we're all worrying about our stats next year (well mostly the girls...) but honestly, I really don't care about how we're losing fast swimmers or how we might go down a division; all I'm sad about is how we're losing a part of our family, and how after banquet, we're never going to be all together in one place again...it kinda hurts. )': BUT be sure that you guys are a fucking legend to all the people yet to join... (: ALL OF YOU. And I know that losing our rep might be a big deal, but think about it; did we EVER really care about winning? Sure, we got mad when we were just a few points off of the other team, but did anyone ever get more than a little upset about a DQ or got mad at someone for slowing down a relay? No; and that's because we care way too much about each other to pay attention to the little details. I don't even care if Jordan beats us next year, as long as we can still be as free and open around each other as we are right now. (: (But okay not beating Jordan is just a LITTLE ridiculous...)
Sigh you're too damn cute for your own good... can you do something really horrible and make me hate you; please and thank you.
I'M SO TIRED OF THIS. Can you not be so al;sdjfadsflk! ): Yeah okay no more squealing from me, but still...sigh. I kinda want to make a private blog...but I'm too lazy to make one and a diary on Word isn't just...good enough. SIGHHLDJFLSIGHSIGH I sigh a lot these days. ): BUT I'M SCARED; I'm afraid that in two weeks everything we had is just going to slowly move away, and it's not something that's easy to just jumpstart again... It takes time and it took a LOT of time and now all that's going to waste and it makes me feel like such a disappointment because I'm too SCARED to do anything and too SCARED to step out of line and out of my comfort zone and too SCARED to just wait for a reaction from you! Sigh I hate myself for being so hesitant sometimes...
And I honestly love love love swim to death and I will cry like mad at banquet cause I can't stand facing another year without their support... )': I'm only a sophomore and only HALF of my high school career is over, but it feels like I'm almost at the end of the road and everything is just rushing in front of me and I don't even have time to stop and cherish everything. I'll have to make an individual post for every member of the team who made a difference for me and TRUST me, that's a pretty big number cause everyone is just so FUCKING AMAZING.
And I know we're all worrying about our stats next year (well mostly the girls...) but honestly, I really don't care about how we're losing fast swimmers or how we might go down a division; all I'm sad about is how we're losing a part of our family, and how after banquet, we're never going to be all together in one place again...it kinda hurts. )': BUT be sure that you guys are a fucking legend to all the people yet to join... (: ALL OF YOU. And I know that losing our rep might be a big deal, but think about it; did we EVER really care about winning? Sure, we got mad when we were just a few points off of the other team, but did anyone ever get more than a little upset about a DQ or got mad at someone for slowing down a relay? No; and that's because we care way too much about each other to pay attention to the little details. I don't even care if Jordan beats us next year, as long as we can still be as free and open around each other as we are right now. (: (But okay not beating Jordan is just a LITTLE ridiculous...)
Sigh you're too damn cute for your own good... can you do something really horrible and make me hate you; please and thank you.
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
