Damn I should stop judging people, huh? It's such a habit, though. ): Like biting my lips and fingers and my crazy temper.
No I'm not going to post a super-long entry about how 'from now on, I promise myself to start new and correct my mistakes and not regret anything! :D' I find that that doesn't work most of the time. I get all pumped, and then go back on those habits even worse than before. So no. I'm not starting over new. I can't. I'm not going to go and correct my mistakes either. I can't. Some things ARE impossible, after all. (:
And it's a lesson I teach myself over and over again. But I've kind of realized I'm not a really good teacher, even for myself. (:
I'm so tempted to say 'I'm going to start all over again!' I think I say that a lot. -_- Another bad habit? Wow I have a lot of those. o__o
Sarah, Izzy, and Claudine, hang in there! I know it feels like rock bottom a lot, but remember, it's not rock bottom unless you're telling yourself so. (: True, there are things you can't correct and you know they'll stay with you for a pretty long time, but that doesn't mean you have to let them control your life! You know what potential you have, and you know how far you can go with it. You've all set goals for yourself before, and you can't let these inconsequential obstacles get in you way. In fact, USE these mistakes and gain from them. Use them as motivation to do better, to double your efforts, to refocus on your initial goal.
Don't let silly things stop your beliefs, don't let them get in your vision, and most of all, don't let them interrupt your life. You're all way better than that. You can override this. And besides, you've forgotten how many people you have on the sidelines cheering you on. You know they always rush to help you when you trip, or lift you up when you succeed. Remember them, and remember that they're always there to help you. As long as you don't disregard them and take them for granted, they'll be your crutches for as long as you need them. (:
And I'm sorry if I acted like a total bitch to you any time. ): People tell me I do it subconsciously. Shocker, huh? -___- But I'm trying to watch myself and I tell myself over and over again to stop being so damn shallow. -_- Half the time on 11:11's, I wish to be less shallow. But apparently 11:11's don't work, and your wish doesn't work if you tell anyone, anyways. Ehhh oh well. I'll find some other way to wish. I think I'll go for the blowing dandelion thing. Yeah. That seems pretty magical to me. (:
And I SUCK at apologizing. I HATE apologizing. I know when it has to be done and why, but it's just so HARD for me. I just hate saying the words 'sorry' in a serious situation, and I don't know why. I think it's because it makes me seem submissive, and I hate losing? I have no idea, but it just bothers me so much. D:
But if there's one thing I pride myself in, I think I've perfected the emotion switch. :D You know when you're super down and your parents have been shouting at you for over and hour and you're all throwing things and slamming doors, and then you pop out of the house all smiley and bright and act as if you love your life? I got it dooown, man. But it's something that's probably required in my household, or else people would think we're mentally insane in here or something. -_- Acting and lying skills are such a necessity in life, and I hate that. Faking things just hides the hurt longer.
I'm so behind on my schedules. I haven't gotten a TCCi account, I haven't started on my career project, I haven't bought my Aloha ticket or MUN banquet money, I haven't found my pencil box or my PE shorts, and alkjdflskdjf I wish I could get a better grip on myself. -_-
I'm exhausted and exasperated. Three more years, and I'm out of here.
Damn I should stop judging people, huh? It's such a habit, though. ): Like biting my lips and fingers and my crazy temper.
No I'm not going to post a super-long entry about how 'from now on, I promise myself to start new and correct my mistakes and not regret anything! :D' I find that that doesn't work most of the time. I get all pumped, and then go back on those habits even worse than before. So no. I'm not starting over new. I can't. I'm not going to go and correct my mistakes either. I can't. Some things ARE impossible, after all. (:
And it's a lesson I teach myself over and over again. But I've kind of realized I'm not a really good teacher, even for myself. (:
I'm so tempted to say 'I'm going to start all over again!' I think I say that a lot. -_- Another bad habit? Wow I have a lot of those. o__o
Sarah, Izzy, and Claudine, hang in there! I know it feels like rock bottom a lot, but remember, it's not rock bottom unless you're telling yourself so. (: True, there are things you can't correct and you know they'll stay with you for a pretty long time, but that doesn't mean you have to let them control your life! You know what potential you have, and you know how far you can go with it. You've all set goals for yourself before, and you can't let these inconsequential obstacles get in you way. In fact, USE these mistakes and gain from them. Use them as motivation to do better, to double your efforts, to refocus on your initial goal.
Don't let silly things stop your beliefs, don't let them get in your vision, and most of all, don't let them interrupt your life. You're all way better than that. You can override this. And besides, you've forgotten how many people you have on the sidelines cheering you on. You know they always rush to help you when you trip, or lift you up when you succeed. Remember them, and remember that they're always there to help you. As long as you don't disregard them and take them for granted, they'll be your crutches for as long as you need them. (:
And I'm sorry if I acted like a total bitch to you any time. ): People tell me I do it subconsciously. Shocker, huh? -___- But I'm trying to watch myself and I tell myself over and over again to stop being so damn shallow. -_- Half the time on 11:11's, I wish to be less shallow. But apparently 11:11's don't work, and your wish doesn't work if you tell anyone, anyways. Ehhh oh well. I'll find some other way to wish. I think I'll go for the blowing dandelion thing. Yeah. That seems pretty magical to me. (:
And I SUCK at apologizing. I HATE apologizing. I know when it has to be done and why, but it's just so HARD for me. I just hate saying the words 'sorry' in a serious situation, and I don't know why. I think it's because it makes me seem submissive, and I hate losing? I have no idea, but it just bothers me so much. D:
But if there's one thing I pride myself in, I think I've perfected the emotion switch. :D You know when you're super down and your parents have been shouting at you for over and hour and you're all throwing things and slamming doors, and then you pop out of the house all smiley and bright and act as if you love your life? I got it dooown, man. But it's something that's probably required in my household, or else people would think we're mentally insane in here or something. -_- Acting and lying skills are such a necessity in life, and I hate that. Faking things just hides the hurt longer.
I'm so behind on my schedules. I haven't gotten a TCCi account, I haven't started on my career project, I haven't bought my Aloha ticket or MUN banquet money, I haven't found my pencil box or my PE shorts, and alkjdflskdjf I wish I could get a better grip on myself. -_-
I'm exhausted and exasperated. Three more years, and I'm out of here.
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
