We're not perfect. Yes we're said to be the school's role models and whatnot, but we make mistakes and it's not fair for you to judge us on the basis that we're ASB kids and supposedly amazing at everything we do. We make things happen - we put on Formal and talent show and International Day and Hello Dance and Homecoming - from an outsider's perspective, it looks effortless. But we literally spend hours and days and weeks just making sure the student body enjoys an event, even if it only lasts 3 hours. And to have people bitching at us for some small mistake we overlooked? Look at the bigger picture, put on your own event, and then bitch to us about it.

Being in ASB for the past 2 years, I've forgotten how we look to other people. Some call us exclusive, some call us a family - if so, we're one dysfunctional and messed up family, I'll tell you that. If any ASB members come across this post, please don't take offense - I love everyone to death, but I'm just a little disappointed. There's become so little support for events - half the class is gone when we make important decisions, and yet they complain about it when the results are unfavorable for them. People shit talk about other people's events, claiming that theirs is more important and time is being wasted on less important events. When you ask for help, rarely is it willingly given. And when you need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, you're seen as being whiny and incompetent. So we all square our shoulders and march on in our separate directions, a little scared to ask for help but a little scared to do this on our own.

And I'm scared too. I've been asking the same people so many questions that they just push me away now, and I'm a little lost. Every time I make an executive decision, there's always complaints that surface and eyes that roll and voices that keep telling me I don't know how to do my job. Truth is, I really don't, and every time I do make a decision, it's with trembling hands and a shaky voice. Everyone's doubts have begun to grow on me, and I've become accustomed to the idea that every choice I make is wrong. And I hate it. I hate it with a passion. I hate that every time I raise my voice in ASB to make an announcement or to update everyone, I can feel the doubt and uncertainty from everyone around me. I hate that certain people will always find imperfection in my actions and continue to point them out. I hate that authority has made people different and placed inside them the mentality to put down those of lower positions.

And to one specific person - your lack of support for me both shocks and disappoints me. Out of all people, I thought you would be the one to back me up when certain things fell through. You knew the difficulties we all had to face in rechoosing a venue and dealing with an event planner who didn't respond in a timely fashion. You listened to me talk about how nervous and excited I was to put on this event. And as one of my closest friends for 8 years, I thought you were the one I would fall back on when things went wrong. I was so entirely wrong that it disgusts me. I forgot how willing you are to please large groups of people - if everyone was hating on Formal, of course you would jump on that boat and agree. What you don't realize is how much your opinion affects everyone else's, especially the younger underclassmen. And it hurts.

We're not perfect. Yes we're said to be the school's role models and whatnot, but we make mistakes and it's not fair for you to judge us on the basis that we're ASB kids and supposedly amazing at everything we do. We make things happen - we put on Formal and talent show and International Day and Hello Dance and Homecoming - from an outsider's perspective, it looks effortless. But we literally spend hours and days and weeks just making sure the student body enjoys an event, even if it only lasts 3 hours. And to have people bitching at us for some small mistake we overlooked? Look at the bigger picture, put on your own event, and then bitch to us about it.

Being in ASB for the past 2 years, I've forgotten how we look to other people. Some call us exclusive, some call us a family - if so, we're one dysfunctional and messed up family, I'll tell you that. If any ASB members come across this post, please don't take offense - I love everyone to death, but I'm just a little disappointed. There's become so little support for events - half the class is gone when we make important decisions, and yet they complain about it when the results are unfavorable for them. People shit talk about other people's events, claiming that theirs is more important and time is being wasted on less important events. When you ask for help, rarely is it willingly given. And when you need an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, you're seen as being whiny and incompetent. So we all square our shoulders and march on in our separate directions, a little scared to ask for help but a little scared to do this on our own.

And I'm scared too. I've been asking the same people so many questions that they just push me away now, and I'm a little lost. Every time I make an executive decision, there's always complaints that surface and eyes that roll and voices that keep telling me I don't know how to do my job. Truth is, I really don't, and every time I do make a decision, it's with trembling hands and a shaky voice. Everyone's doubts have begun to grow on me, and I've become accustomed to the idea that every choice I make is wrong. And I hate it. I hate it with a passion. I hate that every time I raise my voice in ASB to make an announcement or to update everyone, I can feel the doubt and uncertainty from everyone around me. I hate that certain people will always find imperfection in my actions and continue to point them out. I hate that authority has made people different and placed inside them the mentality to put down those of lower positions.

And to one specific person - your lack of support for me both shocks and disappoints me. Out of all people, I thought you would be the one to back me up when certain things fell through. You knew the difficulties we all had to face in rechoosing a venue and dealing with an event planner who didn't respond in a timely fashion. You listened to me talk about how nervous and excited I was to put on this event. And as one of my closest friends for 8 years, I thought you were the one I would fall back on when things went wrong. I was so entirely wrong that it disgusts me. I forgot how willing you are to please large groups of people - if everyone was hating on Formal, of course you would jump on that boat and agree. What you don't realize is how much your opinion affects everyone else's, especially the younger underclassmen. And it hurts.