I swore that I was gonna stop this cycle from happening again but I honestly can't even help it. Maybe I should just stop relying too heavily on other sources for happiness EGH I feel like a little rain cloud that just never stops depressing myself and the people around me LOL. I swore I wasn't going to bring my hopes up but I honestly didn't even know I was doing that...I swear I thought I was being reasonable and looking at everything at all angles; k but what I was REALLY doing was just going in headfirst and not giving a single care about anything else...EGH not cool.
And can these random bouts of paranoia just get out of my life PLEASE. They're such a hassle and they're making me miserable. -_- I keep losing focus not only on academics but on what I want/need in life IN GENERAL and I can't afford to do that at this point. There's so much I need to deal with with SAT and comps and Formal coming up and akdjf;aldkfja;sdlkf I feel like I don't even understand myself anymore. Maybe I don't want to go back to that happy above-the-clouds phase but I still want to be CONTENT at least.
I swore that I was gonna stop this cycle from happening again but I honestly can't even help it. Maybe I should just stop relying too heavily on other sources for happiness EGH I feel like a little rain cloud that just never stops depressing myself and the people around me LOL. I swore I wasn't going to bring my hopes up but I honestly didn't even know I was doing that...I swear I thought I was being reasonable and looking at everything at all angles; k but what I was REALLY doing was just going in headfirst and not giving a single care about anything else...EGH not cool.
And can these random bouts of paranoia just get out of my life PLEASE. They're such a hassle and they're making me miserable. -_- I keep losing focus not only on academics but on what I want/need in life IN GENERAL and I can't afford to do that at this point. There's so much I need to deal with with SAT and comps and Formal coming up and akdjf;aldkfja;sdlkf I feel like I don't even understand myself anymore. Maybe I don't want to go back to that happy above-the-clouds phase but I still want to be CONTENT at least.
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
