My parents met on Valentine's Day. Apparently, my dad had all these girls chasing after him, cause he was the 'hot thang' on the market, so he had like 8079743 girlfriend-potentials. But I guess he dumped all of them when he met my mom (or so he says; he's not that good at the truth) and it was 'love at first sight' and they got married and went off on their happily-ever-after tramp.
NOT.
Fairy tales don't exist, reality does. And life just keeps serving you bitchslaps until you LEARN that you have to stop believing your fairy godmother will save you from your nightmares. And until you understand that, you'll be rebelling against fate and that one hell of a rollercoaster it straps you onto. Because rollercoasters can't keep going up; everyone has to fall down sometime. And you can't see when or where or how. And so yes, life DOES suck, life IS a bitch, life IS unfair, life DOESN'T give second chances, but so what? (: That just means to stop looking for happiness in one place, and trust me, that's a pretty hard skill to learn.
Because what happens when all your life has been centered around one aspect, and that all of a sudden disappears? Then where do you look to? As easy as it sounds, you can't just switch on and off your feelings, or anyone else's. So I guess we wait it out. Waiting's painful, man. ):
But there's just this one wish that I seriously had hope for, but I guess even 11:11's can't help me out here. Because starting from today, that one little wish is going to cause a whole lot of trouble. -_-
But then again, maybe I should stop centering wishes on myself, and use it on other people. lkaj;lsdjfasd I'm so selfish. D: But from my [self-centered] viewpoint, everyone's pretty much happy-go-lucky. (except HenryMa. Keep praying! <3)
^ drafted. earlier this week, I think? things don't change.
Still let-down. Disappointed. Tired of being hopeful. Tired of being hopeless. Stuck in the middle. Hating how lines are blurred. Wanting to know so badly what's right and wrong. Wanting contentment. Frustrated and anxious. Worrying. Shocked? Still trying to scramble back up.
Damn. -_-
Some things are just hard to get over, aren't they?
I don't get why looks have to be so damn deceiving.
And I'm STILL beating myself up.
We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride; The world stuck in black and white. {blg}
My parents met on Valentine's Day. Apparently, my dad had all these girls chasing after him, cause he was the 'hot thang' on the market, so he had like 8079743 girlfriend-potentials. But I guess he dumped all of them when he met my mom (or so he says; he's not that good at the truth) and it was 'love at first sight' and they got married and went off on their happily-ever-after tramp.
NOT.
Fairy tales don't exist, reality does. And life just keeps serving you bitchslaps until you LEARN that you have to stop believing your fairy godmother will save you from your nightmares. And until you understand that, you'll be rebelling against fate and that one hell of a rollercoaster it straps you onto. Because rollercoasters can't keep going up; everyone has to fall down sometime. And you can't see when or where or how. And so yes, life DOES suck, life IS a bitch, life IS unfair, life DOESN'T give second chances, but so what? (: That just means to stop looking for happiness in one place, and trust me, that's a pretty hard skill to learn.
Because what happens when all your life has been centered around one aspect, and that all of a sudden disappears? Then where do you look to? As easy as it sounds, you can't just switch on and off your feelings, or anyone else's. So I guess we wait it out. Waiting's painful, man. ):
But there's just this one wish that I seriously had hope for, but I guess even 11:11's can't help me out here. Because starting from today, that one little wish is going to cause a whole lot of trouble. -_-
But then again, maybe I should stop centering wishes on myself, and use it on other people. lkaj;lsdjfasd I'm so selfish. D: But from my [self-centered] viewpoint, everyone's pretty much happy-go-lucky. (except HenryMa. Keep praying! <3)
^ drafted. earlier this week, I think? things don't change.
Still let-down. Disappointed. Tired of being hopeful. Tired of being hopeless. Stuck in the middle. Hating how lines are blurred. Wanting to know so badly what's right and wrong. Wanting contentment. Frustrated and anxious. Worrying. Shocked? Still trying to scramble back up.
Damn. -_-
Some things are just hard to get over, aren't they?
I don't get why looks have to be so damn deceiving.
And I'm STILL beating myself up.
We’re spinning on a roller coaster ride; The world stuck in black and white. {blg}
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
