Life. Sucks. Seriously. For those of you who say your life is awesome, I admire you. I really do.
So I have a person who I hate, but want to love, and a person that I love, but want to hate. (No, these aren't the boys I hopelessy go after. Gosh. >__>) And, really, I can't control my emotions that well. No, check that. I control my emotions VERY well. That's why none of you have seen me sad. Well, almost none. Family doesn't count. Publicly, I look great. Not physically, (don't get started on that) but emotionally, I am...well...pretty much distraught, if that's the right word. It's like I'm on a teeter-totter, and people on both sides can knock me wherever they desire. In other words, there's the good guys, and the bad guys. Problem is, I have NO idea who they are as of now. People tend to...surprise me. And nowadays, I hate surprises.
I know the feeling of leaving somebody out. Feels good, doesn't it?? Makes you feel honored, all-powerful, popular, whatnot. Hah. But to the people you are leaving out, it feels like hell. Literally. This is why this post is dedicated to Izzy and Stephanie. Why?? Because they understand how it feels to be left out, and they always always include people. It's like they have an emotional sixth sense, and they know how the people around them feel. They're such great friends. Possibly the greatest ever. :]
But seriously, I'm not the worst case. There's all these people out there being emotionally pummelled day and night. Take, for example, that seventh grade Leonard. If you aren't in Flowers second period PE, you probably won't know him, but my point is: he's a great guy inside. But nobody believes that because of all those people out there making fun of him every day. The way he talks, the way he runs, the way he plays, the way he dresses. What does it matter?? And I'm mentioning this because there was this incident in PE a while ago, where Jonathan and Robin were doing it to the point beyond Leonard's control, and he SNAPPED. This is really what I heard, but I've been told that Leonard rushed up to Robin and literally tryed to choke him, to grab his neck. And sheesh, Robin really wasn't a smart choice. So Robin just picked Leonard up by HIS neck and threw him to the ground. And I was like: oh. my. god. So there Leonard was, on the ground, WRITHING in pain. Emotional, or physical, I don't know. I'm guessing both. So then he goes off and sits far off, and the poor guy throws up. I really can't imagine being that hurt to the point where your body physically reacts. But that's what happended. And my point is, please don't treat people like that. People like Leonard. How does that affect me?? What...you're telling me it doesn't affect YOU?? I know that all of you relate to this feeling. I know I certainly do.
And there's my presidency. I actually AM trying really hard, but people don't acknowledge it. In fact, some people don't even know I'm their president. And that's...pretty harsh. And our Inner Council is sometimes pretty much divided. Heard about the seventh graders resigning from their IC?? Yeah. I tell myself it won't happen to our IC, but somehow, I have a feeling that it might. I really hope it won't.
And by the way, the worst word in the word, in my point of view, is "worthless". No, it's not a cuss word, but it doesn't have to be to hurt. Never, EVER call a person worthless. Worst crime in the world.
That's all from my dark side. As for my other side; my normal life side...
Rosenberg comic book!! Aah!! So I copied Michelle's pictures, so I could take home a version and script it up myself, but that didn't really work, cuz a lot of the drawings I couldn't see at ALL. And now I'm gonna be killed by group tomorrow for not finishing my part. Erkk.
I went to a district board meeting today!! And I listened to all those important people talk about budgets and salaries and whatnot. Pretty boring, though it gave me ASB bonding time. :]
And look!! Johnny's winning that race!! :D He got nominated for best actor, by the way. I'm so proud of him. :]
Go watch: "National Treasure"
Go listen: "Numb"- Linkin Park
Go read: "His Dark Materials" trilogy- Philip Pullman
Life. Sucks. Seriously. For those of you who say your life is awesome, I admire you. I really do.
So I have a person who I hate, but want to love, and a person that I love, but want to hate. (No, these aren't the boys I hopelessy go after. Gosh. >__>) And, really, I can't control my emotions that well. No, check that. I control my emotions VERY well. That's why none of you have seen me sad. Well, almost none. Family doesn't count. Publicly, I look great. Not physically, (don't get started on that) but emotionally, I am...well...pretty much distraught, if that's the right word. It's like I'm on a teeter-totter, and people on both sides can knock me wherever they desire. In other words, there's the good guys, and the bad guys. Problem is, I have NO idea who they are as of now. People tend to...surprise me. And nowadays, I hate surprises.
I know the feeling of leaving somebody out. Feels good, doesn't it?? Makes you feel honored, all-powerful, popular, whatnot. Hah. But to the people you are leaving out, it feels like hell. Literally. This is why this post is dedicated to Izzy and Stephanie. Why?? Because they understand how it feels to be left out, and they always always include people. It's like they have an emotional sixth sense, and they know how the people around them feel. They're such great friends. Possibly the greatest ever. :]
But seriously, I'm not the worst case. There's all these people out there being emotionally pummelled day and night. Take, for example, that seventh grade Leonard. If you aren't in Flowers second period PE, you probably won't know him, but my point is: he's a great guy inside. But nobody believes that because of all those people out there making fun of him every day. The way he talks, the way he runs, the way he plays, the way he dresses. What does it matter?? And I'm mentioning this because there was this incident in PE a while ago, where Jonathan and Robin were doing it to the point beyond Leonard's control, and he SNAPPED. This is really what I heard, but I've been told that Leonard rushed up to Robin and literally tryed to choke him, to grab his neck. And sheesh, Robin really wasn't a smart choice. So Robin just picked Leonard up by HIS neck and threw him to the ground. And I was like: oh. my. god. So there Leonard was, on the ground, WRITHING in pain. Emotional, or physical, I don't know. I'm guessing both. So then he goes off and sits far off, and the poor guy throws up. I really can't imagine being that hurt to the point where your body physically reacts. But that's what happended. And my point is, please don't treat people like that. People like Leonard. How does that affect me?? What...you're telling me it doesn't affect YOU?? I know that all of you relate to this feeling. I know I certainly do.
And there's my presidency. I actually AM trying really hard, but people don't acknowledge it. In fact, some people don't even know I'm their president. And that's...pretty harsh. And our Inner Council is sometimes pretty much divided. Heard about the seventh graders resigning from their IC?? Yeah. I tell myself it won't happen to our IC, but somehow, I have a feeling that it might. I really hope it won't.
And by the way, the worst word in the word, in my point of view, is "worthless". No, it's not a cuss word, but it doesn't have to be to hurt. Never, EVER call a person worthless. Worst crime in the world.
That's all from my dark side. As for my other side; my normal life side...
Rosenberg comic book!! Aah!! So I copied Michelle's pictures, so I could take home a version and script it up myself, but that didn't really work, cuz a lot of the drawings I couldn't see at ALL. And now I'm gonna be killed by group tomorrow for not finishing my part. Erkk.
I went to a district board meeting today!! And I listened to all those important people talk about budgets and salaries and whatnot. Pretty boring, though it gave me ASB bonding time. :]
And look!! Johnny's winning that race!! :D He got nominated for best actor, by the way. I'm so proud of him. :]
Go watch: "National Treasure"
Go listen: "Numb"- Linkin Park
Go read: "His Dark Materials" trilogy- Philip Pullman
Impress me. Sing along to Bon Jovi and Muse with me. Watch Lion King until your eyes hurt. Laugh at all my jokes. Buy me striped clothing on my birthday! Learn to love my Mickey. (: Memorize my phone number, and memorize it RIGHT. Buy me CD albums for my birthday/Christmas/anything! Never tell me you want to watch me swim. Get me Vitamin Water when I'm stressed. (: Tell me your life story. I'll tell you mine.
